By ruining it

Makes my life hell!! I left a message on the subject below this post about it :(

I recently was diagnosed with ptsd after being trapped on the 32nd floor in an earthquake in taiwan. It was pretty intense. Anyways, since then 2 other insane things have happened to me including watching a motorbike hit my friends wife (she survived but it was insane) and also being in london for the terrorist attacks and having to take public transport the next day. Panic attack.

Anyways. I have all the same symptoms, chest pains, trouble breathing, panic attacks, constant anxiety and weird feeling of bad premonitions, stomach cramps..Etc etc. Although, one thing I have noticed, and the doctor seems to dismiss, but really worries me is this:

sometimes, roughly 2 to 3 days a month I get this weird cramp like feeling in my stomach that makes me feel weak and almost unable to speak. Its as though I have to tense my stomach to get enough energy to actually speak. Its really scary, and thats also when my breathing becomes more difficult and therefore the panic/anxiety gets worse. Has anyone else experienced this? My doctor was hesitant to prescribe any medication so a glass of wine in the evenings is the only thing that seems to calm me down! Thanks in advance.

There are times when im so nervous I tottally tense up and I cannot speak. First I start shaking then I stutter then I completly shut up. I start blushing and it gets to the point where I have a panic attack or I throw up and/or have stomach troubles. As I have a social anxiety disorder this can happen frequently and thats why I cant attend school, I even find it hard to eat in front of people. I dont go out as much as I used to as I feel so ugly and fat and everyone stares at me. I hate it. I feel like everyone despises me. Im a misfit. Im a failure.

medical question..Someone please help me!!!!!

I have a hard time going to things that are supposed to be fun like movies, concerts, plays, amusement partks, and such because I am afraid that I am going to have a panic attack, or just not feel well, or something else that will prevent me from having a good time and waste my money and ruin it for whoever is going with me.
I desperately want a different job because I think that my job, which I hate and feel trapped in is a big part of my problem. Whenever I go to interviews though, I get ridiculously nervous. This makes it hard to give a good interview. I've even had a panic attack at an interview.
I have trouble driving lengthy distances by myself, especially if I have never been there before. As a result, my husband has had to drive me to a few of my job interviews.
In general though, my anxiety acting up can ruin any day. It makes it hard for me to be happy.

How badly does it affect my life?
I don't even have a life anymore...
All I do is constantly worry and look up symptoms and when I do get
round to something and get out I feel like sh*t and I feel as if
i'm going to collapse and die...
But I might as well die at least it would probably be better than this,
it started with being anxious in school and I would have sweaty feet and feel like I wasn't really there and get lightheaded and feel as if I couldn't even speak and then I started feeling as if I was going to throw up whenever I was asked to speak in front of the class...Thats when the chest pains began and I thought I was haveing a heart attack...Ever since then I have been sure there is something wrong with my heart and if I run or anything I get lightheaded...All I can do now is sit at home and think about how good things used to be and look back on how things would have been if I had managed to stop the anxiety earlier before it f*ked up my life for good :cry:

Im gonna try to find a way to stop anxiety somehow through cognitive behavirol theropy, anyone wanna join with me??

its been with me for 3 weeks now. and it is like constant sufferin everyday. like sometimes i feel like a heat pad or just shake.

sometimes can't sit still for a secound and worry.

yeah it sucks!!!! just put me on medication. maybe i can do better on it then just sit with no help.