Ok, listen 2 me, I know exactly how, you
feel, before you skip what I have 2 say, I
am in your shoes but I can help you. I
know it feels good 2 talk 2 someone that
has the same problems so hear it goes.
I am a 18 year old boy who has been
manicly depressed sense I was 12. Ive
been around many hard days, and believe
me, they were bad. My girlfriend used 2
cut herself b4 she knew I existed (i never
did, because I always saw it as the vagina
way out and I can build up the courage 2
not do it). Instead of hurting myself, I
would deal with my pain by taking pills
(that were perscribed 2 me), smoking, or
drinkin. Even though my pain would go
away for that night, it would always come
back.
Another problem that I have is anxiety,
you know how your heart pounded
uncontrolably? Well that happends 2 me
when I smoke. My body shakes, everything
is louder than it should be. And every
thing feels like its lagging. For
instance if you talked 2 me, I would only
c your mouth move, and like 3 seconds
later I would hear you.
As for the pills you are taking adderall,
I used 2 take them myself (perscribed for
me for school) they were only 10mg a pill
and what you took was way 2 much. My
mother would only give me half.
Recently, my friend told me about
adderall, and he said it was another form
of speed. I read the sideaffects and it
can be serious if abused. I tried them
anyway only 2. I can see why people do
them, I can feel how good it can make you
feel.
I can also feel the negative side affects
such as the addiction, how it dwells on
depression, and how your heart can
increase the beats.
Now for your depression, I dont know if
you have the same depression as me, but I
have a chemical imbalance in my body (not
severe) but enough to make me sad for a
few weeks. Do not use anything to coop
up with your depression. Its ok to smoke
and drink every once in a while if you had
a little of a bad day. But do not make it
as a habbit. Pills for instance are
highly addicting (i would know). And can
lead to other drugs, and not to mention
small balls.
Ok, now as for what you should do about
this heart problem. The first thing you
should do is tell your parents about your
"heart problem", if you feel
uncomforitable telling them it was from a
drug you took, you can always tell that
part later. Make them take you and get
checked about this heart problem and who
knows, it could be just anxiety (which I
have). Second, before you experament
with n e other drug (not that your should)
you should read the side affects, make
sure your not really alergic. And please
make sure u know the proper dosage.
Seriously, not to scare you or anything,
if it was n e thing else like pain killers
you and your friends could of over dosed.
Remember, your parents care much more
about your own safety then just beating
the caca out of you. Of course there
gonna b mad, but its better than just
keeping it in. The will help you more
than punish you.
So lets recap here:
1. Tell your parents about your "heart
problem"
2. Get a checkup from your doctor.
3. Tell your parents about your
depression and how serious it is.
4. Never take a large dosage like that.
5. If you need to talk to someone
personally, you can email me and I can
help you dealing with depression and maybe
get rid of it. :d
