Health Insurance Forum - My Best Option?

I first wanted to say that this site is a wonderful thing to see. I always preferred hearing what people had to say rather than just reading an article on a site but sometimes free forums can be hard to find through a search engine.

As for why I am posting, I am a 21 year old in need of health insurance. I weigh 330 pounds at 6'2". My ideal weight is 230 pounds (doctor designated, I have a large frame and quite a bit of muscle) so I am only 100 pounds away. I am still fairly capable of athletics at my weight so exercising is very feaseable. I have been turned down by a few health insurance policies because of my weight. I had hih blood pressure come up when I went to donate blood at age 18 but once I was out of school it was never a problem again, staying at a very healthy level. My weight probably wasn't helping it but the obvious cause was stress from school. I took a prescription through the rest of school and it was still somewhat high for that last month but as soon as I was done with school I found myself with great blood pressure. I stopped taking the pills and have had good pressure to this day whenever I have checked it.

Now since weight is the obvious cause of the inability to get my own health insurance, I figure that losing weight would be a good idea. I have tried and I continue to fail. I have been looking around recently at the suggestion of a few friends. I am what a person would consider a failure in life. Despite this, I got decent grades in school (better if I had done more assignments) and scored very high on any tests or quizzes. Now it makes a whole lot more sense as to why things were that way. Now that I have been looking around I have come to realize and had a few people agree with me that I show quite a few symptoms of both social anxiety disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder. I always fail at losing weight because I suffer from depression and associate food with happiness. I recently made a mental run against the eating and found myself beaten by my own mind after 4 weeks. It took less than 2 weeks to gain back what I lost in the 4 weeks. I find myself stuck which makes me feel even more depressed as I think about it. I have not been able to lose weight on my own and I really would like professional help with my mental condition. This is something I cannot afford and need insurance for. I am unable to get health insurance because of a weight condition which is hard to deal with because of a mental condition I need the health insurance to help me with. I can think back and be upset because no one in my school or at home realized this when I was younger (mental condition noticeable since grade school, weight since middle school, no connection over made and me being lazy designated as my reason for weight and not wanting to go outside and be with people) but that does me no good now.

I really am feeling lost here since I realized what my situation really is. I need someway out of two very correctable conditions that are keeping each other from being corrected. I have tried health insurance and got denied but I still hope there is some carrier out there who would be willing to cover an overweight individual.

I would appreciate anyone who can let me know any options I have. I am working towards saving some money for college in hopes of becoming a nurse and possibly a doctor later. College looks about 2 years away and then 3-4 years to become a registered nurse. At that point I could get a job easily and have good health insurance but that is 5-6 years more of dealing with the weight, anxiety, and ocd. If I can get treatment and therapy for the anxiety and ocd, then the weight should be no problem since I have made some good attempts but just keep turning back to food to feel happy. I also dread going to college. I tried it once but could not focus on the work and hated going to class. I just couldn't stop thinking about everyone judging me (since I am overweight that feeling comes easier I think) and I dropped out from the social anxiety of the experience. If I make it 2 years working to save for college I will make myself stay in no matter how hard it gets or how bad I feel there because right now I know of this as my only way out. I really want a way out of this that takes less than 6 years so if anyone has any ideas I would much appreciate them. Thank you for reading this. I won't re-read is so there may be some spelling mistakes or parts that don't make sense but I am trying to fight my condition. I always re-read what I type in a forum because I feel that having a spelling mistake or typing something that sounds stupid will have everyone out there judging me and thinking badly of me. Whether I can get out of this another way or not, I am defenitely gonna do my best to get myself a normal life without these problems.