Me and my bf have been dating for 1yr and 1 month today but it hasn't been easy were in a long distance relationship I miss him every day sometime I get so sad I cant help but cry I try not to but I see other ppl with there b/f or g/f and it makes me sad I love my b/f and lately I have had bad thoughts about what would happen if he died and all I know is when I think of that I think of never being with anyone else. I tried to break this up in the 3 or 4 months when we started dating but he held on and didn't want me to go. In the 13 months we've been together we've seen each other like only 7 or 8 times and I have known him for over 2 yrs. The part of me thats missing him misses him so much that when I go out I wanna come home early to talk to him or wait for him to call me (i cant call him I don't have long distance on either of my phone he only does) I cant really say no to him, he lies to me a lot and yells at me and says if he doesndoesnt' at me he thinks im noti'mistening to him or I don't get his point if he doesdoesnt'l it to me, I try to tell him if ur going to yell at me don't call me tomorrow but yet he does and I cant not pick up the phone and talk cuz he says if I don't "just see what happens if u don't pick up". When I tell him how I feel when ii'msad about being far away he always twists it into a way that makes me the bad person but when I wanna talk about the relationship all I wan from him is pospositivegsuggestionsmething to make me feel good about us. I feel like he is the one for me I love hiihim much but he makes me feel so many ways towards him, its wieweirdke hot, cold, on, off, up, down and that all in one phone call. He's never hit me and says he never could hit me. Ii'msoo coconfusedy this relationship sometime I get sick after talking on the phone with him.
Were not always like this tho sometime he can be the best thing in the world I love him so much we talk about how he want to grow old with me and how he will be such a good daddy, we look at rings together. When I see him its like the a breath of fresh air to me he mean the world to me but I just don't know how to deal with how I feel when i'm not with him.
Sometime I feel I need a support group to be in this.
Anything I can do to make this all better?
