|for the past two months, I have gone through a lot of changes in my life, as well as a lot of stress and depression. I went through a custody battle over my children, moved out of my boyfriends house, back into my own...Long story, but we are still together. Got pregnant, it was totally unplanned, and definitely unwanted by the father....I lost it, had a miscarriage at nearly 8 weeks. I am financially barely making it, my cat got taken to the pound by animal control because he was outside, therefore he was"farrell" and put down right away, not even given his 3 days for me to go claim him ( I called the very next day)....There basically has been a giant shitcloud parked over me for quite some time.
I think that I am depressed, but cannot go on prozak because it puts me to sleep, and I have 2 small children to raise. I cry at the drop of a pin, and lash out at my children over nothing. I do not eat or sleep properly, and am constantly fatigued. I can sleep for 8 hours at night, and still need a nap in the afternoon. Generally, I eat healthy, and drink lots of water...I am overweight, though I am always on the go....
Saturday night, I started feeling like I have a kidney infection. I had the worst pain known in my right side, near my spine, shooting through my abdomen. Also started with a headache. Sunday, there were times that I could barely move, and the headache just wouldn't go away, almost feels like a hangover, like I am dehydrated, though I have been drinking glass after glass of water for 2 days now. It is now tuesday, and the headache has gotten worse, feeling more like a migrane now, I have had chills for the past 24+ hours, just can't seem to get warm, even cranked up the heat to like 80 last night. My kids were sweating, and I was shivering. My eyesight is weird, like I have spots and such, and sudden movements almost make me queasy. I have been drinking over a gallon of water everyday since sunday, and still feel dehydrated. Unquenchable thirst. The totally weirdest thing though is that my skin hurts! It feels like I have needles inside of my clothes. If I rub, or roll over on the sheets, it feels like someone has nails on a board and dragging it across my body. I have had this ocasionally in the past few months, but has never lasted more than a few hours. This time it has been here since saturday night.
I totally do not have the money to go to the doctor, although "they" claim that I make too much money at +/- 19,000 a year to get any kind of aid, for either me or my children. They do not take into consideration that I have a mortgage, a car payment, insurances to go with both, two children to support.....Yahde..Yahde..Ya...If I didn't have any of this stuff and lived in section 8 housing, then I guess I would qualify....Working class is not allowed to fall on hard times I guess....I just do not know what to do.....
Does anyone have any answers to help me out????
|Tags: Depression, infection, sweating, eyesight, Headache, drinking, pregnant, abdomen, queasy, Stress|