For the past two months, I have gone
through a lot of changes in my life, as
well as a lot of stress and depression.
I went through a custody battle over my
children, moved out of my boyfriends
house, back into my own...Long story, but
we are still together. Got pregnant, it
was totally unplanned, and definitely
unwanted by the father....I lost it, had a
miscarriage at nearly 8 weeks. I am
financially barely making it, my cat got
taken to the pound by animal control
because he was outside, therefore he
was"farrell" and put down right away, not
even given his 3 days for me to go claim
him ( I called the very next day)....There
basically has been a giant shitcloud
parked over me for quite some time.
I think that I am depressed, but cannot go
on prozak because it puts me to sleep, and
I have 2 small children to raise. I cry
at the drop of a pin, and lash out at my
children over nothing. I do not eat or
sleep properly, and am constantly
fatigued. I can sleep for 8 hours at
night, and still need a nap in the
afternoon. Generally, I eat healthy,
and drink lots of water...I am overweight,
though I am always on the go....
Saturday night, I started feeling like I
have a kidney infection. I had the
worst pain known in my right side, near my
spine, shooting through my abdomen.
Also started with a headache. Sunday,
there were times that I could barely move,
and the headache just wouldn't go away,
almost feels like a hangover, like I am
dehydrated, though I have been drinking
glass after glass of water for 2 days now.
It is now tuesday, and the headache has
gotten worse, feeling more like a migrane
now, I have had chills for the past 24+
hours, just can't seem to get warm, even
cranked up the heat to like 80 last night.
My kids were sweating, and I was
shivering. My eyesight is weird, like I
have spots and such, and sudden movements
almost make me queasy. I have been
drinking over a gallon of water everyday
since sunday, and still feel dehydrated.
Unquenchable thirst. The totally
weirdest thing though is that my skin
hurts! It feels like I have needles
inside of my clothes. If I rub, or roll
over on the sheets, it feels like someone
has nails on a board and dragging it
across my body. I have had this
ocasionally in the past few months, but
has never lasted more than a few hours.
This time it has been here since saturday
night.
I totally do not have the money to go to
the doctor, although "they" claim that I
make too much money at +/- 19,000 a year
to get any kind of aid, for either me or
my children. They do not take into
consideration that I have a mortgage, a
car payment, insurances to go with both,
two children to
support.....Yahde..Yahde..Ya...If I didn't
have any of this stuff and lived in
section 8 housing, then I guess I would
qualify....Working class is not allowed to
fall on hard times I guess....I just do
not know what to do.....
Does anyone have any answers to help me
out????
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nikki_caro
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Aug 2003 Posts: 4921 Location: Right here at work!
Posted: 11-18-03 15:51pm
Have you been to church lately? It might
help to give you enregy and newfound hope.
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JocelynMorgan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Nov 2003 Posts: 5
Posted: 11-18-03 16:04pm
No, actually I haven't. 2 reasons: I
get home from work about 2-3am from work
on saturday night/sunday morning, and is
real hard to get back up at 7 to put on
stockings and "my sunday best" to go to
church. I say bed time prayers with my
kids each night....But the other reason
that I have not been, is because I am kind
of mad at god.....I was actively using
protection not to get pregnant and I get
pregnant anyway...This was the second
pregnancy with this man, and I figured god
wanted me to have it. It almost split us
up over it, he totally did not want me to
have it, and I would not have an abortion.
I finally get used to the idea that I am
pregnant, and that this will be a good
thing, I really did want to have another
baby, just this wasn't the best
time...Then he goes and takes it away from
me....Costing over $5,000, I could have
had an abortion for 200!!! They
basically did the same thing, they sucked
a dead baby out of me, instead a live
one....I know i'm being brash right now,
but I am still p/o'ed about the whole
thing.
God does things for a reason, yet he
doesn't show his reason as clearly...
(p.S.) I did capitalize the g for god
and the h in he and him, but it did not go
thru, I am not disrespectful like that.
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nikki_caro
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Aug 2003 Posts: 4921 Location: Right here at work!
Posted: 11-18-03 16:13pm
I understand about the capitals. But you
know. Maybe the reason for you getting
pregnant, is for you to see that guy wasnt
the one. You might not see the reason
now, but you will. Its just things for
you to learn about .God. But im sure if
you went to a bible study or something.
Maybe read the bible when you have time.
Youll learn. You can be mad at him but he
will always be forgiving and loving to
you. Maybe the things he blesses you
with, he shows you how fast it can be
taken. And your lucky to have all that
you do right now. I have bad times but I
get over it and more good time come. Just
be patient with your family. And dont be
so sad or upset. You have things to
enjoy.
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JocelynMorgan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Nov 2003 Posts: 5
Posted: 11-18-03 16:24pm
Nikki....I know there are always people
who have it worse that you do...And I am
very thankful for the two beautiful,
happy, healthy children that I do have.
I cherish every moment that I spend with
them. I am thankful for the roof over my
head (with the foreclosure pending), and
the car that I drive (with the repo notice
that I received)....But none of this talk
about .God. Is making me feel any better.
I know he loves me, and that he does
things for reasons, but I need more that
that right now!
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nikki_caro
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Aug 2003 Posts: 4921 Location: Right here at work!
Posted: 11-18-03 16:39pm
Well what more is it that you want?
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phil dennison
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Nov 2003 Posts: 71 Location: illinois
the New Improved Madeline Dennison! Posted: 11-18-03 22:04pm
I think you are not sick your just tring
to think of yourself. If you are over
weight a health club is cheaper that the
quarter pounder at mc donalds! If you are
cold in 80 degrees, my biggest advice is
to
1. Ask your doctor or
2. Go live in flordia. if you
only make enogh to pay the stuff you
listed there is such thing as a better
paying job. Get a life!!!!!!!!
stop thinking of yourself when people in
africa are starving to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Madeline dennison
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sharon2146
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Nov 2003 Posts: 1 Location: Florida
Re: I Feel Terrible! Posted: 11-18-03 22:46pm
jocelynmorgan
wrote:
for the past two months, I
have gone through a lot of changes in my
life, as well as a lot of stress and
depression. I went through a custody
battle over my children, moved out of my
boyfriends house, back into my own...Long
story, but we are still together. Got
pregnant, it was totally unplanned, and
definitely unwanted by the father....I
lost it, had a miscarriage at nearly 8
weeks. I am financially barely making
it, my cat got taken to the pound by
animal control because he was outside,
therefore he was"farrell" and put down
right away, not even given his 3 days for
me to go claim him ( I called the very
next day)....There basically has been a
giant shitcloud parked over me for quite
some time.
I think that I am depressed, but cannot go
on prozak because it puts me to sleep, and
I have 2 small children to raise. I
cry at the drop of a pin, and lash out at
my children over nothing. I do not eat
or sleep properly, and am constantly
fatigued. I can sleep for 8 hours at
night, and still need a nap in the
afternoon. Generally, I eat healthy,
and drink lots of water...I am overweight,
though I am always on the go....
Saturday night, I started feeling like I
have a kidney infection. I had the
worst pain known in my right side, near my
spine, shooting through my abdomen.
Also started with a headache. Sunday,
there were times that I could barely move,
and the headache just wouldn't go away,
almost feels like a hangover, like I am
dehydrated, though I have been drinking
glass after glass of water for 2 days now.
It is now tuesday, and the headache
has gotten worse, feeling more like a
migrane now, I have had chills for the
past 24+ hours, just can't seem to get
warm, even cranked up the heat to like 80
last night. My kids were sweating, and
I was shivering. My eyesight is weird,
like I have spots and such, and sudden
movements almost make me queasy. I
have been drinking over a gallon of water
everyday since sunday, and still feel
dehydrated. Unquenchable thirst.
The totally weirdest thing though is that
my skin hurts! It feels like I have
needles inside of my clothes. If I
rub, or roll over on the sheets, it feels
like someone has nails on a board and
dragging it across my body. I have had
this ocasionally in the past few months,
but has never lasted more than a few
hours. This time it has been here
since saturday night.
I totally do not have the money to go to
the doctor, although "they" claim that I
make too much money at +/- 19,000 a year
to get any kind of aid, for either me or
my children. They do not take into
consideration that I have a mortgage, a
car payment, insurances to go with both,
two children to
support.....Yahde..Yahde..Ya...If I didn't
have any of this stuff and lived in
section 8 housing, then I guess I would
qualify....Working class is not allowed to
fall on hard times I guess....I just do
not know what to do.....
Does anyone have any answers to help me
out????
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Mommy_2_b
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2003 Posts: 811 Location: Brookfield, N.S.
Thanks: 1
Thanked:0
Posted: 11-19-03 12:23pm
Sweetie god does not care what you wear on
the outside. Its what is on the inside.
We have people show up at our church in
the scruffiest clothing you can imagine
and they spend the whole time smiling,
singing and praising the lord. Its whats
in your heart sweetie. I'm here if u want
to talk. Much love melissa
pm me if u want i'd love to get to know
you and help you.
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JocelynMorgan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Nov 2003 Posts: 5
Posted: 11-21-03 11:17am
Ok, so I thought I was coming to a health
forum, where I could posibly get some
answers to why I was feeling so bad, but
aparently not...I came to a jesus board,
where everyone criticizes....So
hypocritical, but most are.
Madeline, you aren't even in the least bit
funny with your caca about the health club
being cheaper than mcd's...I do not eat at
mcd's, and I do work out...And as far as
the go live in florida thing, you are just
an a**h**e...I was writing to try to get
some real advice, from what I thought was
a health forum. And let me guess, you
never, never think about yourself, or
whine when things don't go right, and you
feel like caca, and it won't go
away....No, I bet you are to f*****g good
for that! I know there are people who
have it worse than me, but you would
probably cry a little if what you think of
as your perfect little everyday world you
live in got totally ripped apart, and you
were about to lose everything.......Sorry
if I misinterpreted things.....
Mommy2b, thank you for the little support
you left, but I do not feel welcome here,
and just cuz I thought I typed in
healthforum, I thought that someone might
have felt this way, and not be so
judgemental....
See ya later....Jerks
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Mommy_2_b
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Oct 2003 Posts: 811 Location: Brookfield, N.S.
Thanks: 1
Thanked:0
Posted: 11-21-03 20:12pm
Email me i'll talk to you and help :d lov
ergirl316@hotmail.Com i'll talk to you
and nothing will be shared to another soul
and i'll try and help and I wont bring the
religion thing in anymore I really do want
to help you. Much love melissa
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vikingchic
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Jan 2004 Posts: 14 Location: ohio
Posted: 01-13-04 19:34pm
The pain sounds like the same thing that
happen to me .It is either a kidney or
blader infection.You need to go to the
doctor or emergancy room .The fever and
sore all over the body is all th
symptoms~!Hope this helps you ! Goo luck
with your depression~!
Good luck
vikingchic~!
if you
only make enogh to pay the stuff you
listed there is such thing as a better
paying job. Get a life!!!!!!!! 
stop thinking of yourself when people in
africa are starving to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Madeline dennison
