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well, I have discovered the root of my pain through much work and my ability to see my own perceptions! It's seems like I feel verydifferent from everyone! Like I am an alien out of this world :shock: and I often feel I am not the person my parents want me to be - and they think that my life vision is absolute nonsense... Which is pretty hard when you're just trying to be yourself and live together still at the same time.

I just want my parents to love me and accept me as I am - I hope one day they will understand my dreams and passions (alternative therapies, expressive arts, dance, travel) and love me for who I am. I want to live my life but and just be myself.. But there's a part of me that wants to make mommy and daddy super proud and whenever I don't I feel like an absolute failure and inadeqaute... I know that this story/cycle keeps me in the anxious to please and depressed when I don't downward cycle... But it's hard to beat.

Any thoughts anyone???