Obsession , major depression Posted: 07-11-05 23:25pm
I dont know if this belongs here..But I
have a major issue going on with myself.
I still act like my ex-bf of 2 1/2 yrs is
my bf. We still get together rather
ocassionally and have sex but there are
also time where we are fighting ,
screamning at each other and throwing
things an then we always somehow end up
having sex..
But when I know hes with another girl or
even talkin to another girl I get
immensely jealous. Oh and a little side
note, we havnt been together for close to
a 1 1/2 yrs.... I still tell my family
that we are together, I lie to them all .
An when I know my ex isnt answerin my call
bc he doesnt want to have to invite me ,
or talk to me in front of his new
"prospect". I drive by his house to see
if his car is there. If its not there
then I drive by his freinds house.. I
call his friends phone *69 to see if they
or him will answer... And the sick part
is , I can go get with other guys but
somehow I still think is justifiable that
I do this .
We are basically good friends with
occasional beneftits, bc at one point we
were each others best friend. I just dont
know how to let go of this emtion... I
feel sick to my stomach knowing hes with
*any* her other than me... I dont know
what to do .
