I think assena hits the nail on the head.
You seem to have a combination of depression and that has been focused on the physical self-image.
First you need to treat the depression, because this is a physical disorder contrary to popular opinion.
It is mainly caused by hypoglycemia, that inter alia also cause you to put on weight. Hence the connection between depression and obesity.
You can help yourself if you are prepared to study the contents of our web site at:
Hypoglycemia.Asn.Au
read the following articles:
“what is hypoglycemia?”
“the serotonin connection”
“depression a nutritional disorder”
“beating anxiety”
these articles tend to be somewhat technical and if you have problems following these, please discuss with a doctor or a therapist.
Then you need to study the self-help psychotherapy course. There are eight chapters and if you study one chapter a week and carry out the mental exercises, you should start to feel better about yourself.
Also pay particular attention to the topic:
“the wooden leg argument” (google search our web site)
that explains how you can get rid of a negative self-image that is related to your physical features.
This cannot be resolved over night and you need time to study and do the psychotherapy course. If in problems consult a therapist.
Cheers jur
jurriaan plesman, ba (psych) post grad dip clin nutr