Hi, everything you said is the same as what I am getting, I have never suffered from anxiety befre but I had a very bad year this year and now I am getting all the symptoms you are getting, if you ever wanna chat to me pm me would like to talk with you. Good luck

You can & will find yourself. You have taken some steps & recognized some problems & the probale cause of all this so you're moer than half way there. You are amazing to have achieved all this at such a young age, many people start suffering at a young age, even know why but they don't seek help or recognize the symptoms they just see their life as lousy.

Be proud of yourself!! Yes, I am serious be proud & then keep seeking help then all you'll have to do is maybe the hardest part take the help (do it!!).

Your friend died (how? This may affect what you need to do) so you are naturally grieving & part of that is fear that you or others near to you will also die. That too is natural.

Look up natural sources of tryptophan on a search engine(the answerswill include turkey, ricotta cheese, most nuts etc etc) this chemical will help balance stress levels in your brain & so help you cope. If dhea is available to you my daughters psychiatrist told me that he starts his patients on 100mg p.D. Then when things level out goes down to 50mg p.D & aside from helping anxiety/stress/depression etc it can also help reduce stress & give you some energy which in turn might help get you out for a 30 minute walk each day (preferably between 6 & 7 am as this is when the sun - even if it's overcast - works on our brain chemicals to reduce stress.

It sounds an awful lot like anxiety.
My father passed away when I was fourteen. He was an alcoholic and he ended up drinking rubbing alcohol and perfume and all kinds of other stuff and he ended up having a heart attack. It was unexpected. He was very sick, but he was sick and got well so many other times that we thought he would get better again.
Before he passed, I was such an outgoing and free spirited girl too. I hung out with my friends and was relaxed and all that good feeling stuff. After he died I was so paranoid that I was next or that my mom or brother or someone I was close to was next. I was a nervous wreck. I have become very obssessed with my health since he passed. I have had problems with panic attacks in the past and even now I can be at the mall and get really nervous and feel like I want to run out of there as fast as I can. I feel so much safer at home or near people who can reassure I am okay. There have been days that I will get a physical symptom I have never had before and I swear I am going to die any second! Lately I have been having a weird throbbing achey pain in my left arm and into my chest! You can bet I am freaked out!
See I decided to learn as much about panic disorder and anxiety and stress as I could. I went to my local library and checked out a bunch of books and started to read about all of this and learned some really good exercises that would help in my worst moments. I learned that a lot of what I was feeling after my dad died was stress related and grief.
I strongly suggest starting a journal and keeping track of your grief. I also made an angel catcher. The book consists of pictures of my dad and all sorts of memories written down. There are pages that have anger all over them and sadness and then there is also a page about what he did that made me laugh or smile. The point of the book was to help me clear my mind of grief.
Join a counseling group of people who feel the same as you. You would be surprised how many people go through the same things!
I will say a prayer for you! Best wishes!

Hi, i'm going through the same things...Except for the weight gain....My acid reflux only allows me to eat tiny meals. Back in august I lost my mom, then two and a half weeks later I had my baby. I'm alone all the time because my bf works all day, I don't have any friends, my relatives are far away and i'm scared to drive, to go out on my own. I'd like to get out of the house, and to work, but we can't afford childcare...My medicaid stopped after I had my baby, so i'm uninsured and so scared i'll run up hospital bills that i've already landed in the emergency room once from panicking.....I'm afraid i'm dying, that others in my life are dying...I constantly check on my baby's and my bf to make sure they are still breathing. My mom died in her sleep and there was no explanation, now I can't go anywhere or do anything without envisioning all the ways I could die or my loved ones could die at any given moment. Plus with the stresses of raising a baby without my mom or any female role model, my asthma has gotten worse, i've started getting anxiety/panic (don't know the difference?) attacks that feel like heart attacks. And i've developed acid reflux and none of the otc's are working, I can't afford a prescription, severe heartburn keeps me up all night and I get no relief...I have it in the daytime too.....My life is a mess.....
I sincerely hope that things get better soon for you and i...And anyone else who's feeling this way, it's really horrible when you're too scared to live your life....Best of luck!

Hey everyone.

When a traumatic even has happened recently in someones life and even up to 7 yrs later ptsd can occur out of the blue. Prehaps yuo should talk to your doctors about that it manafests itself like anxiety. The doctors thought that I had anxiety and they were right I do slightly. But I also had my first seizure 3 months ago and they found out that I have temporal lobe epilepsy, so while I was thinking I had the worst of the worst things wrong with me like a brain tumor or that iwas going to die I searched the internet and I found out alot of things. Do a google search on post traumatic stress disorder. Then see if the symptoms fit your descripttions and people ptsd goes away. You can gain your life back.
Take care.
seeyas