I was so saddened by reading your entry.. You are so young, and me not being all that much older (24;) and remembering my life 6 yrs ago, well that stigns.. I have had panic attacks for 6 months now, but I was fine with it until it suddenly reblossomed 4 days ago, and it is scaring and it saddens me... No one should go through something like this, and especially not someone as young as you!!!! I am jealuos of all those people going around, waking up every morning being ok, waking up with a smile, eating their breakfast going to school, jobs etc. While I have to strain myself not to fall completely apart, I have to force myself into the shower, dressing and drinking my coffee when all the time I just want to die... I have come to the point where I realize that what i'm fearing is fear itself, i'm scared of getting another panic attack and therefore i'm stuck in a viscious sircle.. I really really really hope you get the strenght to find a doctor, psychologist, therapist that can see the problem and you seperate and be able to help you.. It is very straining to have attacks evenings as well as mornings.. Mornings are my worst time. It's to quiet, to still to nothing to be able to concentrate on anything... I wish you all the best. And, allthough it's not a consalation: i've been there and it does get better! But you must never ever give up, fight it everyday and one day at time you will see light at the end!