*CAUTION TO THOSE STARTING ADDERALL*
I've been using adderall LEGALLY for 8 full years now and i wish i could go back to the first doctor who prescribed it to me and slap him.
Im writing this article at 4am right now because i cant sleep after taking adderall 30MG XR this morning.
I've been prescribed adderall in relativly high doses since my freshman year of highschool because I was doing poorly in school and diagnosed with ADD. For the first 3 years it proved extremely succesful in my academic career, I ended up graduating at the top of my class and I am currently enrolled in a well known university that i will not mention for privacy reasons.
After three years of taking it the negative effects began to manifest and they have been gettinig worse ever since:
1) i started to develop extreme social anxiety, not even wanting to leave my house
beacuse i was afraid to have to interact with people
2) When im on it I become extremely irritable and any conversation im having with someone seems pointless and I just count the seconds until its over and I can go sit and watch TV or do something alone.
3) I cant sleep without sleeping pills
4) ive gone through so many relationships that i've lost count, all of which ended because i was constantly *FORCED TO DECIDE between taking my adderall that day or being able to socialize without being paranoid and ive unfortunatly always ended up sticking with adderall because of pressure from my family and peers to do well in school*
5) i developed extreme physical tension, clenching my jaws and constantly twirling my hair to the point where i would tear it out without noticing.
6) I lost almost all interest in Sex
7) my anxiety has gotten to the point where i can only go to a social gathering (such as a party) when Ive had a good amount of alcohol to calm my nerves (and that only works some of the time.

My grades have dropped so low that I have been on academic probation for an entire semester mainly because i am so anxious that i cant go to class or ask the teacher for help.
Ive had to constantly increase my dose every couple of months because I have developed a tolerance for it and every doctor is always supportive of increasing this medication because of its 'legal' status.
The worst part about this drug is that doctors do not recognize it as a harmful substance for people with ADD.
The worst part about all of this is that i have been to 9 different doctors regarding my problems with adderall and every single doctor has recommended something else and then switched me back on to adderall when my ability to concentrate on school work began to slide.
I recently wrote a 20 page research paper on the addictive potential of adderall (i'm majoring in psychiatry) and it's been the only "A" ive gotten in college so far.
I am so hopelessly dependant on this drug, i cant even get out of bed in the morning without it.
Has anyone been able to kick this drug after multiple years of use??? I NEED HELP PLEASE!!!!!