Hey shanti, how are you? I hope you got my post about the scar cream. I am really sorry to hear that your Dr. Is not helping you when it is his job to do so. I think the best thing for you to do is to get a new Dr. Who will listen to you and address your concerns- everyone deserves this!

I understand you feel really bad that you gained a lot of weight but there must have been a root cause for that. Did you break up with your partner? Traumatic event? Depression? Identifying this would help you decide what you need to do to overcome that.

Remember, not eating like you said will only result in bingeing and you will end up gaining a lot of weight. Eating moderately is the key. A Dr. Can help you with this, like I said try finding a new Dr.

Hope you feel better, pm me when you want, i'm there for you. Take care of yourself.

Hello,
i am a mental health counselor, I would like to ask you what state you live in. I work with clients who are on medicaid actually that is all that I do work with. Anyways if you tell me that state that you live in I may be able to find a clinic around you. I can not promise anything because clinics are already hard to come by anywhere and in some states there are none what so ever. I think that also you should look for a group in the newspaper and go meet with them . I say this because it is very important for a person who has these types of issues as you do to be around people with these issues who all want one thing to get help. I do suggest that you start seeing another doctor or a nutritionist that your doctor can refer you to. And I kno that you feel like you have gained so much weight but maybe you look healthy now as opposed to sick being a size 2 now instead of a 0.

Hope this helped write back.

I called for a new shrink, sorry psychartirst, sp?
And they said they would send me some paper work, to fill out
have not receivced it yet
i am praying I will get tomorrow, mon or this week.

I am not at a healthy weight, I have rolls, where I have pick up my lower tummy and wash, I never had that before!!!!!!!!

My tummy is so big, and flops over my pants, gross!!!!!!!!!

I do not understand how this happened in less than a year?

My body metaboilsm must really be screwed up

it dumbfounds me, I could be on the old show ripely's believe it or not
show, I would if I got paid,

poetmc, I will look into ordering that cream, thanks a zillion for the info.

Someone else said to get laser surgery done, I would once I have the money.

I have to wear elastic clothes, I am physically uncomfortable, my bathing suit does not fit me, I put on a big maternity shirt over it
so I went in my mom's pool, I am exercsing, well starting to again.

I just broke up with my boyfriend, who was also my best friend
i really loved him, the positve aspects of him, were on my list of what I wanted in a partner, yet I learned he has this other side of him
that emerged out, after a year, he can be violent, mean, he is a liar

he had been putting me down, making things up, he would tell others on the phone, I say this and that, and it is nothing but lies
i am dumbfounded, how could someone be one way and then a complely different person?
I do not understand it, he has something seriously wrong with his brain
and I do too, in the sense, that I am upset, I am embarrassed I was with him for a year and half, I thought he loved me, I trusted him
i had sex with him without condoms, because I trusted him, we were in a monogamous relationship, he is desllusional, he said I slept with all these people, and his neighbors, I do not even know!
What??????????? The person I thought I loved with all my heart, the person I woud do anything I could possibly do, never exisited

he is diganosed with bipolar, but I think there is a lot more too it
he told me he can be best liar there is, I did not have a tape recorder
i wish I did, it scared me
we broke up later that day, it was crazy, he spit in my face
he said I never did anything for him
the hours and days, and weeks, compulative hours on the phone,
i was never there for him, I never gave him enough, according to him

and then after we broke up, he called at 5 am to say he was going to call the cops because he said I am a thief, that I took his pills
which I never did

he told me he took zanax and adavin and was all dooped up, he did not remember going to an a a meeting the nite before
he took his own dam pills himself, and he did not call the cops
thank god

but then he sent repeated emails that I am a thief
and that I am prostitute, and I am liar, hyprocrite over and over again
the only ones were true, was that I am bulimic and have vomit breath

but he still shoud not have sent all those mean emails,
if days and months before he said how much he loved me, thought all these great things about me

yes, I am really stressed out

i will be okay though, I am playing soft music, sitting out in the sun today
praying that things will be okay

i want to get help, and then move to another state,
i don't know where
i want to change my name legally, I do not want my ex boyfriend to find me.

I want to start my life over in a sense,
i need to heal.