Hey I am sorry that you are going through this.It is not an easy thing to handle on your own.Have you got anybody that you can confide in ? You don't have to tell them everything,just that you're finding it hard to find the right way of eating for you.Maybe you can try eating around other people because personally I know that you are less likely to binge when you are around others.
Most importantly though,remember that this isn't your fault.We do not choose to let these conditions take over our lives.It is a hard thing to get over on your own so please,please.Please allow yourself to get some help.It will be better in the long term.Take care x

Ok, so I tried a diet today (again), after not eating yesterday¬_¬, but.. There was a problem, i'm trying to diet without my parent's to know about it, but still.. My mom is dieting, so she always cooks for everyone what she has to eat for her diet, so it's okay, but today, I had my breakfast, as the diet said, then, for lunch, everyone was doing something else, and my mom didn't have what was supposed for lunch, so my fridge was empty(at least nothing useful), so I horribly binged on bread with peanut butter cream, then I had a sandwich ¬_¬.

I hate it because I actually didn't wanna eat that, I was gonna do my diet properly, but there was nothing on the fridge, and I felt really hungry and anxious.
I felt horribly bad.
So, I hope tomorrow there is something to eat.

I have a horrible headache, and my stomach hurts too. I'm almost sure it's because of my disorder, I mean, i'm really messed up right now :?
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I know with me I binged because I dieted & my body couldn't take the starvation after awhile. It sounds to me like you are cutting back on calories too much so then you have this urge to eat. Your friends eat normally so they have no binges. If you let yourself eat normal meals regularly your urges would go away. At least that's what happened to me.

Today I complete a week following a diet, i've been eating well, at first I couldn't help to think I just wanted to stop eating, but I didn't.
I actually lost more than what I do when I don't eat, cuz i've also been excercising too much, so i've been good, i've been feeling great, i've lost 12 lbs on a week.
And I haven't felt much hungry, whenever I do.. I eat, if it's out of time to eat, well I eat some lettuce or tomato, or some vegetable, and.. Of course at a certin hour I eat my meals.