I dont have a job no more at my call centre. It was only temporary until school was over. Now I am jobless and very depressed. Im just here sitiing at home while it is hot and sunny outside. I dont like to look out my window and seeing the hot weather cuz I feel like im missing out on somehting or I am behind in my life or soemthing. I keep saying to myself im gonna hand out resumees tomroow but I keep repeating myself when the day comes. Its just that when I wake up in the mornings I feel like caca. Im tryi8ng to morivate myself but it can be hard sometimes. I think that what is really importan t for people who are down are a really good support system like friends you can count on. But somedays/mornings, I feel like I am lacking in a good friend that I can always call. I think that is part of where my depression comes in. But then as soon as my friend calls, I feel so happy and my depression is all gone. I feel so energized that I can do anything. Its soooo annoying. And when I meet up with them I have so much fun. And then when I am done hanging out with them I come home and feel good again and not nervous or anxious anymore. I guess it is just the mornings, I need a boost. I really really hate mornings! Does anyone feel the same way about the morning time????? Maby I am lacking in self esteem or something cuz I hate the way I look in the morning and I just hate getting ready. But when I get all ready and dressed, then I feel so much better. But then I think to myself, well in the future when I marry someone, how will I wake up beside them everymorning looking like this, and then I become depressed again just thinking about it all.........