So true. I love my music so much and I know I would have to give it up if I had a kid. I'm already 40 so I don't know if it's a good idea to have a baby this late. I've always considered adoption or even foster parenting as an option.

My husband has hepatitis c which I found out about after I got married. So that scares me too.

I knew he didn't want kids before we got married but at the time I didn't want to lose him. I know I made a mistake then, I had no business marrying him and i'm paying for it now.

As they say, you make your bed now you have to lie in it. That's what i'm doing allright lying through my teeth every day.

That is one phrase I have heard one too many times lately. I cannot stand it. Everyone deserves a 2nd chance! Life is hard enough not to be with someone who makes you happy and you are happy with.

Also 40 is not too old to have children. There will just be more risks involved.

I'm also attracted to one of the guys in my band. He is my husband's best friend. I know he's attracted to me too. Nothing is going to happen but believe me I think about it alot. I have sexual dreams about him frequently as well.

I would get yourself together first before attempting anything new.
Although on the other hand sometimes its easier to make changes that need to be made when you have support. I knew I wanted out of my marriage awhile before I did anything. Meeting someone on-line that I fell in love with gave me the strength to finally say enough. I don't know if anything will happen with this other relationship or not. I love this person and am willing to wait. Just having that person be there for me emotionally (if you can say that being as far apart as we are) was a great help. This person wasn't the cause of the divorce but he sure made it a hell of a lot easier to deal with.

I am not going to pursue a relationship with the guy I was referring to.
He is very single and I am not. Wouldn't mind doing him though. Lol

i want to be single for a while after I get out of this marriage, when it finally happens. I'll need some time to get things sorted out.

I don't have any close female friends and don't have anyone to confide in. I appreciate your advice tarbaby.

Anytime!
What type of music does your band play?

I'm 37 myself and have 2 small children. Shouldn't have married the person I did but you know what they say. It's later the rose colored glasses come off. Or hindsight is always 20/20.

I'm trying to learn from the previous mistakes. Also I know what qualities I want in a person now.

Feel free to pm me if you want.

Lol! That's a line my husband likes to say that i'm wearing rose colored glasses.

We play current, heavy rock and alternative music. Let's keep in touch, but I gotta get back to work for a while.

Thanks again tarbaby. I appreciate talking with you.

Anytime!