I have been struggling with an eating disorder for some time, and im on my way to better, though its hard. Ive been attempting to reguarly eat meals. Though ive been having terrible problems with my bowels. If im alone I can deal with it because I understand that I need to eat, but I have roomates and friends that dont know about my disorder or my past with it. This makes a terrible time for social gatherings or functions, and over the past few days, (and its hard to admit this, and by typing it, I am to myself) I have been not eating, to simply avoid the problem. Over the last week its been at its height, where nothing comes out solid, or stays in long. Ive googled the problem, which makes note of laxative and diuretic abuse, none of which I partake in. And I dont know how long I can keep up the, "i think I ate something bad" excuse...

Has anyone dealt with this, have advice, I know this is probably leading up to medical advice...But if theres an alternative, and I only dont want to see a doctor, because readmiting to everyone that its become this, will be hard, my families been through a lot...

If anyone in recovery knows or experienced it, will my body eventually learn to process the food? (the internet made reference to loose muscles, which I dont believe I have) also I know this means im losing lots of fluid, is there anything I should do special to replenish those?

-thank you for any replies, or even for reading my post.
July.