Thanks for the reply I do appreciate it and your understanding. Thats true im 22 right now and am at a weird point in life, im questioning eveything like why am I here where did we come from where did the earth come from whats gonna happen when I die, I mean everything. I just want to not think about it and live a normal life, but its hard to not think about this stuff and to be honest I cant stop thinking about it! Its like a snowball effect when I do I just wanna grab life by the horns and rip it out of its socket.

Yeah dude I know what you feel like I live like that everyday to its like I dont know im even here its like im in a dream and I cant look at myself in the mirrer or fast movements in front of my eyes its like my brain cant perceive it and I think about getting older and that ive lost so much all ready that its not goanna come back like im not goanna be the same anymore and it scares me soo bad that I have relly bad anxiety all the time even now as I type this and it sucks and I dont know what to do ive been to all the docs and they told me the same thing anxiety and depression but it feels like soo much more than that like something physical as well I ust to have it all a good job and a girlfreind and my girlfreind was the same way with me she got tired of the outburst and couldent deal with it and I could not even deal with her cause its like she did not understand what I was going threw so I lost her as well and now ive been stuck in my room for like a year now not doing hardley anything cause I feel so messed up likei dont know what im doing and it gets worse and worse every day so if this is something new too you then you need to get help now before it gets any worse cause you dont wanna be like me stuck in the house all the time cause I feel so weird and out there but there is help and it can be fixed I know it sucks now but just balls it out and do what your doc seys even if you think it is crazy cause you were once ok you can be ok again it took a while to get like this its gonna take a while to get better again thats what I think everyday even when I feel like I dont know what im doing and like im gonna die so just remember your not alone dude .........

I remember when I was around 15 or 16, I was obsessed with the thought of dying for a long time. It scared the crap out of me and I used to look at other people laughing and think.........How can't they be thinking about it too? I know that lasted for a long time but I can't remember how it stopped. I still get a sinking feeling in my stomach if I think of eternity and all that but I don't obsess on it. I think it's a phase some of us go through and eventually your mind just says.......Worrying about dying isn't much of a living. Most people I know get that scared feeling when they really think of death but some of use go through that obsessed thing for awhile for some reason. It does end though.

I hear what your sayin I talked to my sister who is 26 said she went through the same thing when she was 22 or 21. Just basically think about everything from eternity why we are here what happens after death and the act of dying. I try and tell myself hey when it happens its gonna happen works sometimes and others I obsess about it. I think its a natural process that will pass the more I talk to people about it. Its just a fact of life we wanna know why we are here.Just gotta have faith in destiny I guess.


Another thing about these anxiety attacks though is that I find myself checking my pulse quite often to make shure its within range, also have racing memories, really hard to stay focused on the here and now.

This is an exact quote from a book I have by a doctor...."a healthy heart can tolerate a rate of over two hundred beats per minute for many hours, even days, without evidence of damage." when you go through that phase with death you start looking for symptoms too. Don't worry about your heart, I doubt it beats anywhere near two hundred beats a minute. Those racing thoughts slow down when you sort all this stuff out. Your own mortality is a lot to put on yourself that first time you really grasp it so it just takes time.

Hey girls i'm new here in this forum, but I can share my story, i'm 22 and I had a baby when I was 19 and after 6 months I started suffering from deprresion ans anxiety attacks that I though I was going to die out of anything even if it was just my left arm hurting I thought I was going to have have a heart attack and oviously from freaking out my heart rate would go up to like 180 bpm and plenty of times I had to be taken to the hospital because I was sure I was dying, but started on medication (paxil) and everything went away until I got pregnant again now and had to stop taking the med which it was only 5 mg not really a medication more like a sugar pill but it was working , now I started having really bad panick attacks where i'm avoing been by my self because I think i'm going to die, so the doctor told me that I need to get on zoloft a medication that supposebly is not harfull for the baby, if you need to talk let me know , I had a dream when I was like 10 years old that changed my life it made me scared of everything, and it was the most stupid dream ever.

I went through a similar thing about 1 1/2 years ago. I used to smoke marijuana, and one time it gave me a bad panic attack. I quit smoking, but I felt like I never really left the panic attack. For the next 3 months I lived on my couch, thinking I was dying. I went to a couple different doctors, including a heart specialist. I ended up going to a psychologist who taught me some mechanisms to deal with the anxiety. If I was in a car, talk radio would sooth my anxiety. Playing music was the best medicine. Anything that took my mind away from hopeless thoughts helped. Now, about 1 1/2 years later, I still do get some anxiety here and there, but I haven't had a real panic attack in a while. Just concentrate on the now, and tell yourself "this too shall pass".