Hi
when going onto medication the first lot may not always be the best one to be on.
I myself went from aroprax which I did not like due the side effects that it had if I ever forgot to take one. I am now on avanza which seems to be working well.
Its hard when you are in a situation where you feel like there is no point to live anymore, because I have the same thoughts.
I myself from entering early twenties I thought I was going to drive myself crazy, I felt as though I had no contol of what was going on in my mind and felt that I was going no where.
I use to "run away" from my problems, but eventually it reached boiling point I ended up having to finally face the issues that needed attention.
I'm seeing a physcotherpist.
It really does boil down to you to reach out and get outside help. You may not feel like reaching out to anybody because hey I didn't want to, but if I didn't then, well, hey I may not be even alive....
Time is one of the huge factors in life, don't feel like your wasting away, don't forget that there are people out there who love you dearly.
And also it could be an age thing as well.
I've just turned 25, and well I feel as though i'm "settling".
Hope things turn round for you.

Thanks for the reply, I have classic deprssion and anxiety symptoms, such as feeling in a dream all the time , having no control, and real bad dreams (although not nightmares) sometimes its hard to decipher those from reality. Classic symptoms, so I know that is what I have, but as an individual I also have others as well more intense. I wake up and have panic attacks think im trapped and think im going to die. I feel like ive blown up inside my mind like the big bang or something, just hope it settles down for me , thanks again.

No problem itslowered!