But there is a lot you are dealing with, so its not apethy.
You have reasons for your feelings, and yes, you do need some help.
Is there anyone at the school/college you go to able to refer you for counselling, or simply a support group.
Failing that, a visit to the doctor may help.
You are obviously trying your best at things, so dont worry that feelings are getting you down, deal with that, we need to approach life whole you know, and grief and drepression are great stumblers, that need to be dealt with, and supported.
Come on your 16, if the going got too tough, you can resit the gcse's
at a night class or something.
Parents probably disagree with what im saying, they will be concerned you dont miss chances, when you get them.
But the educations system is good, and if you wanted to get them, you will, and when you can cope.
What kind of work have you in mind to do?
I dont mind personal messages, if you would prefer.
But, for now, I will look for you again on here.
See you soon maybe.