Ive just come out of a 4 1/2 year long relationship. It was really good up untill the last six months. I found out my fiance was a liar and also a theif!
It feels so strange to be single again, I love having the free time to see the girls and I love going out and talking to guys, but its wierd being in the house on my own, i'm only 22 but i'm left with a big house, mortgage and bills on my own! I'm not sued to sorting all this on my own!!!! Thing is, is that i'm petrefied of getting into a relationship again. Ive been out on dates with some really lovely men, but I dont think I will ever be able to trust anyone again!
Sounds like you're my twin sister on the other end of the world.
Try 9 years of long term relationships, then abandoned into the single life of casual dating. Independance can be lonely, especially when you're used to co-dependance for so long. Will you learn to trust someone again? Quite possibly, just don't expect it to happen anytime soon.
At our age it's very tough since no one really wants to settle down, and there are quite a few out there who are more interested in what we have.. (i.E. House/car/etc.) than who we are.
So, i've been coping by going on the casual dates and living it up a little.... I'm just waiting for someone to come across that makes me settle down, not just because I want to commit to someone, but because of the person they are.. Makes me want to commit to *them*.
Not sure if this helps or not, but hopfully puts a thought or two in your head.