Today I woke up to myself.... I am not who I once was.
I was that typical girl,
always doing things out of the ordinary
always the centre of attention
always acting before I thought
i was independant
i was outspoken and respected
i had a huge group of girlfriends

so what has happened.... Have I just matured or is it deeper than that.

Today I signed up to this forum because I need answers, they may not be that right answers but I refuse to tell anyone that I am struggling.
In two years lots has changed.....
I have become a control freak about everything
- school work (i always have to top the class)
- going to the gym, I have to go every day
- I watch what I eat like crazy
- I rarely go out anymore because I am focusing on school, something that I never did

so whats wrong, it doesn't sound out of the ordinary does it?
I am topping the class, I am motivated with the gym, my body is in good shape, I have a beautiful boyfriend and a loving family.....
However I am nuts
one of my very close friends, who is quite similar to me, told me that he is now getting help because of his stress and anxiety, maybe I should too.
I am pushing my boyfriend away because I don't think that I am good enough for him, I drive him insane with my jealous outbursts and he has done nothing wrong.
Where can I get help.... Is this stress.... All I want is to be perfect, I know that is not normal.