I was taking lexapro for depression and anxiety and at a certain point was doing really, really good. I haven't felt that good in years. I was working out. I even quit smoking for two weeks. But then I crashed really hard. I was missing a lot of work, drinking a lot and started cutting my self. I am 25 years old. I haven't cut myself since since high school. Well I went to my mom and she got me all set up with a psychiatrist that set me up with topamax and reduced my lexapro by a half a dose. I felt better at first but I am still cutting. Do I just need to give it time or could it be the lexapro? I feel like that drug is bringing out this devil in me. I have always been depressed but never felt like I had to hurt myself to cope. (other than in high school) am I still riding out the initial satisfaction I felt from hurting myself? When will this stop? I don't want to live like this. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.