Hi,

the feelings that you are experiencing must be very scary for you. I am a 23 yr. Old nursing student and one of my very good friend's has been diagosed with bipolar 1 disorder. She would tell me that she gets so aggrivated with people that she wanted to go over and scratch her eyes out. She was serious.

Anyway, the best thing that you can do is to talk to someone on a regular basis. If you are not already seeing a psychiatrist it may be a good idea because not only can they talk to you about your feelings but he/she can also prescribe you mood stabalizers such as "lithium". It is very important for you to express to either your parents or doctors what you are feeling. If your ever feeling like you may harm yourself or anyone else call your doctor asap. Good luck!