I can let myself get worked in to a fury, and I feel out of control.
I am hoping that someone else has been through this or has some suggestions for ways for me control this.
My anxiety feels as though it is boiling up, and I feel like I need to explode. My heart beat flys, my head rishes with awful thoughts, and I really need some way to release it.
I am distructive, and have broken things in my house. I am typically a kind, thoughtful person.
I have been with my hunny for nearly 2 years, and yes we've had way-ups, and way-lows....But we have love and I know he wants to support me through this...But I feel guilty.
I have even attacked him,,,and I mean viciously attacked him. Like I said, this is so uncharacteristic of my own self, and I worry about it.
I have violent thoughts toward myself as well,,,,but, I made myself a promise today, that i'm sure I will keep. So, that is not my huge concern.
Where can I output this energy when i'm wanting to swing fists? I am 25 years old, this is so ridiculous, I hate the life i'm pulling along right now....
Please discuss!