Yeah I am kind of in the same postion. I am borderline anorexic too...So this may be the reason. I also worry very much that if I eat too much when I throw up I might not get all the calories back out. So don't worry you are not alone...Take care.

Yeah - I do that. Sometimes I really feel the need to eat somethign like icecream, but it isnt binging - its just eating a little bit of a 'naughty' food. I sometimes chew 'naughty' food then spit it out, but if not I eat it then make myself sick. This is because I always seem to be hungry, but don't want to put on weight.

Everyone's ed is different, so it's not beneficial to compare your behaviours to other peoples. I know that I have gone against any of the stereotype ed philosophies - be that behaviours (i binged on cheese when I was younger, for crying out loud), recovery etc. Just the mere fact that you are suffering is what matters.

At the end of the day, the ed is not who you are - it is not what defines you as a person!