Joined: 21 May 2005 Posts: 69 Location: Melbourne, Australia
I Failed Already Posted: 05-22-05 20:24pm
Its only been about a day since I vowed to
stop throwing up, but I couldn't do it
could i? I hated the feeling of food in
my stomach and my mind was racing so I
just had to throw up, I need to learn to
deal with my feelings or something, but it
does feel comforting that I can come here
and discuss how it feels and know you
understand. I just thought i'd let you
know that i'm still going to try, and I
will beat this. I promise.
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lilo
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2005 Posts: 21 Location: london
Re: I Failed Already Posted: 05-23-05 03:53am
Would it make you better if you eat
something heathy. I am really in same
situation as you but I am trying so hard.
For the last 10 years (it's really scary
that it has passed so long) I have been
struggling with food and keeping it
secrete. What I do now is really trying
to have food with me to work/school that I
have prepared by myself and I know is nice
and good for me and will eat it and make
sure that I don't throw up! You have to
fight this! You are the only one that has
to stop this. One thing that has worked
for me is sweet potato- I have stopped all
my sweet cravings with that. One potato-
is one potato and nothing to throw up.
Try it. Try to have some nice boiled
veggies and some nice nuts. Leave your
wallet so you don't get ideas to buy
something to binge on. Finnish that one
dish and go back to work/school. Try it
please.
One step and one meal at the time.
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Tinkerbell_0033
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 May 2005 Posts: 4
Posted: 05-23-05 17:14pm
Never stop trying! I failed a million
times before I overcame this disease.
Believe in yourself. :)
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jade_flowers
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jun 2005 Posts: 7 Location: England
Crying My Heart Out For An Escape Posted: 06-18-05 19:17pm
I'm in the same situation. Ive been
bulimic for 4 years now and ive tried so
hard to stop. Ive eaten ridiculously
healthily, excersized an hour every day
but the minute ive finished eating I can
feel it in my stomach sitting there and I
get so uncomfortable.
Im so scared that im gonna get black
teeth. Im so proud of my teeth. There
perfectly straight and fairly white and
ive had no work done 2 them, not even a
brace, but im terrified that one day
they're all gonna rot and go black and
fall out.
I want to be happy but I cant be unless I
have total control about how much food and
keeping inside me.
I worked out that if I was doin weight
watchers I would be consumin 2 points a
day! I shud b consumin 20 minimum
im so scared right now- I want so badly to
overcome it but I cant- im a mess. I
havent had a period for 2 years now and
the 1 thing I want from life is a family
and if I dont overcome this bulimia thats
never going to happen. Help...Please!
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damsel
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 May 2005 Posts: 69 Location: Melbourne, Australia
Posted: 06-19-05 08:02am
I'm probably not the best person to help
you, as you can probabaly tell by reading
my posts, but I can tell you this: I know
exactly how you feel, I know your pain and
your sense of controll and your fear. I
know it helped me to know there were
people out there feeling the same as me,
and that I could talk to them without
being judged. So you can pm me or
whatever you want if you wanna talk to
someone. Does anyone know about your ed?
Its good to have at least one person to
speak to, even if its not your best friend
or your family, just someone in your life
who you feel comfertable with. Maybe your
gp or something. Oh you know what helps,
I just thought of this, liquid food always
feel better in my stomach does than solids
and it passes through quicker. I hope
you're doing ok! :) xoxo
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jade_flowers
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jun 2005 Posts: 7 Location: England
Posted: 06-19-05 17:03pm
My family found out last year and I see a
phychologist every week but im lying to
them all, they all think im better because
I did put enough weight on to give the
impression I was getting better and also I
was only just clawing onto life but ive
stll kept myself well underweight but not
so underweight that im at any risk of
dying. But anyway they're all giving me
coping strategies and im mainly seing the
psychologist because of my depression.
I went to bed last night thinking I could
overcome this but I cant. The only way I
can do this is by becoming anorexic again-
at least I can stay thin without worrying
bout my teeth.
Why is it not working, ive seen 2 doctors,
a counciller and now a psychologist and my
parents and my friends are so supportive
but nothing works and now im just a liar
who abuses herself, I shouldve let myself
die when I was bones
but thank you for your support, its so
nice talking to some1 about it without
lying
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mshanson
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2004 Posts: 102 Location: California
Posted: 06-19-05 18:30pm
No, you didn't fail. You tried once &
so you are one step closer to overcoming
this disease. You only fail if you don't
try at all! Thomas alva edison, who
invented the lightbulb, spent years trying
before he got it right. Keep trying!
Every time you allow yourself to feel
full, every time you resist the urge to
throw up ~ even for a little while ~ you
are beating the bulimia.
Meanwhile, you may want to get as much
support as possible during this time of
change. If you have family or friends who
know about this, see if you can talk to
them about it & hang around them when
you want to purge. My husband was so key
to my recovery ~ he never gave up on me
& he would tell me over & over
again that I wasn't fat, that I deserved
to eat, that I was doing the right thing
by recovering.
If there is no one like that in your life,
then maybe journal about it & also use
this forum! Good luck. You can do it!!!!
