im 19 have a 7 month old son, you have no idea what you are wanting to get yourself into.
taking care of a baby is alot of work mentally, physically and emotionally.
they are also very expensive. you arent even done high school, what do you have to offer a baby? a part time job will barely make ends meet, and trust me, your parents will not welcome the news with open arms right away..
i had a horrible labour, 15hours or longer, i was snpped down there and stitched up, i could barely walk, i had to have an enema done because i was backed up from having the epidural.
everyday is a struggle to get by.
i have no freedom to do what i want when i want, and sometimes i wish i could do what i want when i feel like it. but i have a son, i have respinsibilities, i have certain things that need to be done and taken care of.
you have your whole life to have and PLAN a baby, dont throw away your youth and freedom so quickly, youll miss it when its gone.
take this time to be a good cousin to your cousins baby, spend time with the baby, baby sit, play laugh enjoy the new baby with the freedom of being able to leave responsibility-free and come and go when you want.