Oh man I need some help here. I don't understand what is happening to me. I have this problem with sleeping, the whole thing is a problem, going to sleep staying asleep and waking up. It's terrible, it tares me apart, see the problem is the twisted loss of reality the minute a get into my bed and everything after that. It happens usually the second I turn the light off. I will get into bed and try to sleep,then after about 2 minutes weird stuff starts to happen, it's like I feel like i'm sliping away everytime I go to sleep. My eyes play tricks on me or at the moment I hope that is whats going on. I see simply things like my coat hanging up on the door and then my eyes will go out of focus and the coat looks like some kind a robber or someone who's going to attack me. I'm 18 I know this isn't supposed to be happening to me. The problem isn't that all this weird stuff is happening it's the paranoid thoughts of things I relate to what might be causing them.
Along time ago I went depressed and suicidal and overdosed and all that stupid stuff, I took alot of sleeping pills 50 to be exact (they were supposed to be strong prescibed).. Anyways after that I was put on school medical leave and was home alone alot, started to remember the feeling the sleeping pills brought me and then I got stupid again and started a abuse on the sleeping pills, I actually liked the way the sleeping pills made me feel, I took like 15 to 20 at sometimes for weeks, just to feel that feeling of out of body. But that was along time ago. Now the thing thats driving me crazy is that everytime I go to sleep now, I feel that feeling of being overdosed, panicy, confused, and fugged. It's like my mind is telling me something is wrong and something bad is going to happen but I know nothing is going to happen...It keeps getting worse and worse everytime and now its got to a point where I wake up with stiff back pains and sharp pains in my head...
This is bad because i'm trying to get into the medical field, im starting my paramedics class on the 31, can anyone help me with this .. ???