Hi

i have been in a relationship for a bit more than 2 years now. He moved in with me after 3 weeks and although our relationship was hard straight from the start, there was something that made me stay with him. Here is the situation: he does not work, has no intention of working, he never goes out because he is kind of afraid of people. Well, he will never go out with me or on his own but when his brother or his ex girl friend used to come, he would follow them in the car. Anyway, I ended up paying for everything and I am putting myself into debts( small debts but still debts). He used to cuddle me a lot and was sensitive. Now it does not want me around, if I try to cuddle him he tells me to go away that he is tired. Sometimes in the morning, he will get up and not talk to me for hours. As I said, we never go out, he stays on his computer all day, we never do anything together. I am not allowed to go out in the evening or with friends at night and not on holiday with mates as he does not want to go anywhere. He is very selfish and has no real feelings for me. I tried to break up a few times but his reaction scared me. He would not let me go, will put himself in front of the door and told me I could call the police that he will not move. And after a while he calms down, tell me he loves me....

So I thought I would stay with him and see what happens but now I am pregnant and he is playing up with my mind. I wanted to have an abortion at first but he convinced me to keep it. Then he told me he will not look after this baby at all which means financially it is impossible for me. After that he told me he did not want that kid and that if I keep it he will leave me. After many thoughts I have decided to go through an abortion but he has changed his mind up now but I have not. I cannot afford to waste my whole life with someone who made me feel depress since I have met him, have lost my self confidence and made me miserable. I will get rid off this baby and would like to get rid off him but how could I manage? I feel weak and scared of him, of what he would do. He has never touched me but I know once he is angry I would not trust him at all. He lives with me in the property am renting and never goes out. Any advice on how I could manage?

Sorry for this long post,
thanks