Joined: 12 May 2005 Posts: 1 Location: north carolina
What Is Wrong With Me Posted: 05-12-05 23:45pm
I'm 24, female, an international student
studying at a us graduate school.
I do not like my research, and I do lot of
other things like social work and
part-time jobs for fun. This year, my
research has been going really slow, and
my advisor decided to not support me any
more. I am loosing funding for fall....
I will have to find a new advisor or find
a job, both ways are hard to get through.
My life is totally a mess in the passed
two or three weeks...I have trouble
concentrating...I over sleep a lot but
still feel tired in the day...I don't feel
hungry and I have to force myself to
eat...I just cannot do anything right...
I am afraid to tell my parents, who are in
my homecountry, because I do not want them
to suffer. I am afraid to tell my close
friends, because then everybody would know
that I failed to be a graduate student. I
have nobody to support me and I feel
lonely and helpless...I cry a lot, I
googled about depression everyday...
Things just don't change...I still have
trouble concentrating on my work, which
will make my academic standing even
worse...
What's wrong with me??? I ask myself
every second, I seem to know the answer
but I just cannot help being miserable and
desperate about virtually everything that
is going on...I lost my confidence, lost
my habit of being organized, lost my
interest in anything, I just lost my
mind...
How can I get back to myself? How can I
stop wastig time and make myself a normal
person? How can I stop being destracted
and concentrate on my work?
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IslandLiving
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 May 2005 Posts: 3 Location: British Columbia Canada
Hi Tammy Posted: 05-16-05 20:36pm
You don't sound too good.
Email me and I can send you a gift that
might help you.
Best m
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evee
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 May 2005 Posts: 8
Posted: 05-17-05 01:34am
It sounds like you need to see a doctor
about depression. If counselling is all
you need, well that would be great, but I
think that you need to be on some meds
before your situation gets worse. I will
also pray for you!
