I posted on this board three years ago (I believe I am on page four), and I cannot believe all the additional posts since I left! I just wanted to pop in to update everyone and provide what support I can.
Thankfully I am still virtually pain-free. My life has changed tremendously since 2005. I followed through with most of my plan (as outlined previously) for about a year, and, just a side note, I quit smoking. Gosh, looking back I am shocked at how miserable I was. Those days were my darkest. The pain was unbearable and the hopelessness I felt was debilitating. Oh! And the fear… what an awful feeling!
I realize not everyone here has exactly the same symptoms nor the same medical histories, current known illnesses, lifestyles, etc. But it seems clear that we all have at least two things in common: pain and uncertainty. Fear of the unknown is often worse than reality. I think everyone here has probably gone through the same cycle of pain, uncertainty, worry, fear… more pain, more uncertainty, more worry, more fear until it is all-consuming. I am telling you now: JUST STOP! You are creating more pain and preventing your own healing with this negative cycle.
See your doc, run the tests, take the meds, change your diet, take the supplements. But above all, break that nasty cycle right now. Let your doc worry about the illness. YOU concentrate on your health and well-being. I know it sounds trivial, but believe me. I know your pain and the anxiety it perpetuates. Regardless of your diagnosis (or in many cases, the lack of diagnosis), stress is your biggest enemy. If you can get a handle on that, your body can start the healing process.
I have fallen back into old habits again. I am NOT the poster child of exercise and I don’t eat enough ‘good’ food but I have maintained my mental approach (and I am still a non-smoker). I simply don’t worry the way I used to. If I can’t change something, I don’t worry about it. Every now and then (maybe twice a year) I start getting a vague gnawing under the left rib cage and I immediately do a quick mental self-check. Every single time I find the same thing… stress. Once eliminated (or at least put into perspective), the pain subsides. I know some of you have completely different diagnoses than mine (many of you don’t even have a diagnosis), but my message is the same for all. De-stress your lives!
Best wishes to all! I sincerely hope you find peace and well-being!