I'm 18 and I understand alittle about what schizophrenia is. About 2 years ago I got really depressed and overdosed big time. After that I confused myself with someone who has hullicinations and hears things. Of course the doctors thought that I had schizophrenia, and that became my diagnoses. I went to many hospitals because of it. I became very confused and had many twisted thoughts through all of the medication that I was put on. Then about 19 months after the diagnoses, I had a allergic re-action. They took me off all my medication and discovered that I really didn't have schizophrenia at all. After that I started to come back to normal. Now I always question my self if what I see and hear is really real. I have a hard time understanding the complications of medication and the effects it has on your brain. But I wonder now if all that medication that I was filled up with gave me a distorted way of thinking. Its very hard sometimes, since i'm on my way to getting my degree in paramedics. My nightmares seem to get worse and worse. I have very disturbing dreams, cant even sleep through the night without waking up thinking i've been hit by a car or something. Any ideas out there ?..
My guess is you have 2 choices. For me schizophrenia started like it should, symptoms of psychosis. I also had hallucinations that I had hallucinations, in an odd sort of way- but yes, this does work. Basically I got my psychosis meds from some smaller delusions and from having a lot of trouble, like you, deciding wether something was true or not. That helped for a while untill I basically gave myself schizophrenia by just having delusions that I did have it. Then, the new meds. So for you I can tell you there are two choices. Wait it out and just keep on believing stuff no matter what, or take new medication for psychosis. Heck, maybe you're getting it this time (again)? Thats all just imho :)
just want to write that your situation was unfortunate. I'm not much of an expert, but I have recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia.
Why? Not because of "hearing voices" or "hallucinating". These are stereotypical ideas of what schizophrenia is, but it is much deeper.
And it is almost sickening, perhaps, that they probably did not have a good enough understanding of schizophrenia, and thus shouldn't have adminstered you with anti-psych meds.
Unless of course you are making this up. Hope not. Heh.
I believe they diagnosed me with schizophrenia for delusional thinking (everybody out to get me, type of thing), difficulty connecting thoughts, very slow verbal response times, mental pauses during conversation, lack of eye contact, monotone voice, poverty of speech, etc.
But they may have misdiagnosed me as well. I had a dystonic reaction to abilify. But now, they're thinking of trying seroquel in the future, perhaps.
Hallucinationss and hearing things is not a stereotype situation. As you said you are not an expert you just don't get voices or hallucinations. Schizophrenia is different in everyone, some people never see things some do, some dont hear things some do and some are paranoid like your self, yeah I am all of those things. You should just count your self lucky you do not hear or see things.