I'm 18 and I understand alittle about what
schizophrenia is. About 2 years ago I got
really depressed and overdosed big time.
After that I confused myself with someone
who has hullicinations and hears things.
Of course the doctors thought that I had
schizophrenia, and that became my
diagnoses. I went to many hospitals
because of it. I became very confused and
had many twisted thoughts through all of
the medication that I was put on. Then
about 19 months after the diagnoses, I had
a allergic re-action. They took me off
all my medication and discovered that I
really didn't have schizophrenia at all.
After that I started to come back to
normal. Now I always question my self if
what I see and hear is really real. I
have a hard time understanding the
complications of medication and the
effects it has on your brain. But I
wonder now if all that medication that I
was filled up with gave me a distorted way
of thinking. Its very hard sometimes,
since i'm on my way to getting my degree
in paramedics. My nightmares seem to get
worse and worse. I have very disturbing
dreams, cant even sleep through the night
without waking up thinking i've been hit
by a car or something. Any ideas out
there ?..
Jacob. W
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Wesleyg
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 38 Location: Wisconsin, US
Posted: 05-11-05 19:28pm
My guess is you have 2 choices. For me
schizophrenia started like it should,
symptoms of psychosis. I also had
hallucinations that I had hallucinations,
in an odd sort of way- but yes, this does
work. Basically I got my psychosis meds
from some smaller delusions and from
having a lot of trouble, like you,
deciding wether something was true or not.
That helped for a while untill I
basically gave myself schizophrenia by
just having delusions that I did have it.
Then, the new meds. So for you I can tell
you there are two choices. Wait it out
and just keep on believing stuff no matter
what, or take new medication for
psychosis. Heck, maybe you're getting it
this time (again)? Thats all just imho :)
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JoshGSchizophreniaNIN
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Aug 2005 Posts: 13 Location: Henderson, NV
Posted: 08-04-05 06:32am
Hey jacob
just want to write that your situation was
unfortunate. I'm not much of an expert,
but I have recently been diagnosed with
schizophrenia.
Why? Not because of "hearing voices" or
"hallucinating". These are stereotypical
ideas of what schizophrenia is, but it is
much deeper.
And it is almost sickening, perhaps, that
they probably did not have a good enough
understanding of schizophrenia, and thus
shouldn't have adminstered you with
anti-psych meds.
Unless of course you are making this up.
Hope not. Heh.
I believe they diagnosed me with
schizophrenia for delusional thinking
(everybody out to get me, type of thing),
difficulty connecting thoughts, very slow
verbal response times, mental pauses
during conversation, lack of eye contact,
monotone voice, poverty of speech, etc.
But they may have misdiagnosed me as well.
I had a dystonic reaction to abilify.
But now, they're thinking of trying
seroquel in the future, perhaps.
Hallucinationss and hearing things is not
a stereotype situation. As you said you
are not an expert you just don't get
voices or hallucinations. Schizophrenia
is different in everyone, some people
never see things some do, some dont hear
things some do and some are paranoid like
your self, yeah I am all of those things.
You should just count your self lucky you
do not hear or see things.
