Hun it really does get easier, the both of
use go to the same therapy centre so I
know what they are talking about and what
kind of stuff goes on. When I first
started therapy I went to one of the men
in the centre but I really didn't click
with him because I couldn't be honest with
him at all, I knew my parents were paying
alot of money for me to go to see him so I
asked to if it were possible to have a
different therapist and they said it was
no problem. They want you to get better
and be free from your eating distress and
if that means changing therapist then
thats what they'll do.
I know you have said that suicide is not
the way to go and I don't know if I ever
will die, well as a result of suicide but
taking tablets is very different. I am
now almost addicted to taking them becasue
I know I am doing harm to myself and that
makes me feel a little better because I
believe I deserve to suffer, you know how
it feels to feel like you are not worth
anything and that your family deserve more
than to have you around, I feel like that
alot.
By the way I never asked you how long you
have been going for therapy for, I have
been going for a year in a few weeks.
But the reason for this post is that you
always remember that there is hope and you
can recover, that is something that is
true.
Do you ever dream? Dream about life after
recovery, dream of something better for
yourself, dream of living life and then
hope and believe and your dreams will come
true.
And remember that you are not alone in
this, there are so many people who are
going to therapy where we are who feel
like caca and who don't know if recovery
is possible, your not alone.
I hope your well and i'm looking forward
to hearing from you. Take care of
yourself k
