Ok hold on, since when is an eating disorder a concious choice? I certainly did not choose to have an eating disorder neither I think has anyone else. An eating disorder is very complex and can be triggered off by so many different things.
Really I am not sure if you have an eating disorder but it is certainly not something you should be aiming to have because in reality an eating disorder is really like living in hell.
Eating disorders are more about how people feel and think and usually a person with an eating disorder feels very negativily about themselves and how others view them. I have to say that many people who have an eating disorder are not always underweight, an eating disorder can manafest itself in people of all shapes and sizes.
If I were you I would go to your doctor because it really is not a healthy way to be. You need to be put on medication that helps you it, it should not create more problems for you.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope everything goes well for you. Take care of yourself
