Please Read to Ease My Mind For the Day. Posted: 05-01-05 17:50pm
Ok, i'm not sure if I have just plain
anxiety or bipolar and anxiety. I'll go
through a run through of my past year:
i started college recently, at first I
wen through a irrational depression so I
was withdrawn. As time when one I had a
few friends that would try to get to know
me. Around january. She told me how she
knows nothing about me, I felt very
passive and unable to explain to her. It
was slightly common for me.
When I go home, I have friends that I love
and I talk to. I can meet new people and
love doing it, usually with no problem.
I would over analyze situations; like when
she wondered why I acted very distant, I
would become oddly nervous and say jokes
to people around me, to distinguish and
awkward feelings I have. Latley, i've
been going through weird moments of being
really happy, or acting happy and feeling
slightly empty. I will make constant
jokes and feel on top of the world,
however, I will over analyze a situation
and become randomly upset. I was feeling
quite ok recently, then when I was with a
few friend I started to become slightly
withdrawn torwards the night. I was on
three hours of sleep and slightly
inebriated but basically fine. Well,
while flirithing; this girl would lay her
head o n me and I would feel heart
palpitations and felt slightly surreal.
I couldn't help it....After ruining a
moment with the two of us I felt really
upset-thinking I will never get a chance
ot fix it. Every hour or two, i'll feel
upset or i'll start thinking of ways to
fix the problem to alleive myself. I
often try to find what's wrong and I soon
become lethargic and don't care at those
moments, regarding the situation. It's
very hard for me to write what I feel,
because I feel like it's not fully
explaining it. I guess i'll lastly say
that i'm not stressed by school work at
all, I can't sleep and feel very tired
when awake, sometimes I can feel very
energetic on little sleep. I feel that I
can feel happy one moment then feel down
about something the next but i'm unsure if
that's a distinction of bipolar or just
anxiety and occasianol unhappiness.
Explain something to me to ease my
curiousity until i'm able to see a doctor
for a true diagnosis.
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I Am Not a Doctor Yet So Don't Take This to Heart Posted: 05-19-05 23:18pm
To me, it doesn't seem like you have
bipolar disorder at all. Full blown
mania is far more severe than just feeling
pretty good. If you suspect that these
feeling are more than just a good mood you
might be cyclothymic (a member of the mood
disorder family, charateristic of frequent
depressions and hypo-mania).
It seems like you most likely have a
personality disorder of some type.
Perhaps schizotypal or borderline. You
have trouble keeping relationships, and
you often feel like you aren't connected
to the people around you.
You definetly have a panic disorder
though, you seem far too stressed from
common activities to not have this
particular type of illness.
But when you do see a doctor, don't
suggest anything you think that you might
have- just go in with a list of what you
feel (a list might be able to better
express your feelings rather than just
trying to explain a situation) and let
them tell you what they think you have.
