Hi, I was wondering if someone could help
me who's been through this before. A few
years ago, I stopped eating for about six
months, and then when I started eating
again, I started to "get rid of" the food
too. I've been bulimic for about 2 years
now, and recently it's gotten really bad.
At first, I did it because of extreme
stress I have, and to numb any emotions I
have because I don't like it when people
know what I am feeling. But now I can't
stop. I've been "getting rid of" anything
I eat almost every day for about 7 months
now. I have friends that know, and i'm
going 2 a psychologist because my parents
know, but I still don't really have anyone
who's actually been through it. My
friends think i've lost weight, but I
don't see it. My throat burns and I get
dizzy all the time now. I had to go to
the nurse and leave school early yesterday
because I almost passed out when I was
running in gym, which is weird because i'm
an athlete. I dance, do gymnastics, and
do track so i'm also really scared that if
I talk to my doctor she'll make me stop
one of them :( I feel like my whole life
is falling apart from this. Please help
me?
~ andie candie
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deathx
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Aug 2004 Posts: 118
Posted: 04-28-05 22:10pm
I'm surprised you do this to yourself if
your atheletic as most people with e.D's
wish to lose weight and the best way to
lose weight is to eat healthy adn
excersise.
Its hard to stop but it is possible.
How do you feel before you throw up? Why?
How do you feel afterwards?
The reason your throat burns is because
your throat and stomach is being destroyed
by the acids from your stomach, with the
extremity of your case your gunna burn out
your innards and wont be able to throw up,
eat or breathe.
A bad sign is if you choke when throwing
up, thats how must bullemics die. Choking
as the throw up, or from the shock of
having an acid reflux when throwing up.
When I stopped, it was gradual, I found if
I was ta friends house, or had a friend
over, under there watch I didn't do it.
It's a mental thing and a behavioural
thing to, its your attiude to it.
You will have lsot
weight if your throwing up and
excersising.
You'll be feeling dizzy due to acid
movements in your stomach from exercise
and the fact that when you purge/don't eat
healthy then you screw up the
vits/nutrients your body needs.
Chances are the doc wont want you to stop
doing dancing etc but may be worried it
may become an addiction, thats not good.
You've gotta take control, its hard. Self
control is what you need. You've gotta
force yourself to not stick those fingers
down your throat. Keep at it )trying to
stop) and the first time you stop yourself
from throwing up you will feel excellent, from then on it
gets better.
