Im Addicted to Adderall

Hello my fellow addicts. Well I am an addict, anyways, I am prescribed to 20 mg of paxil for my social anxiety disorder, and that totally saved my life, I am free as a bird and I am so outgoing and there are no bad side affects at all. I started to become very tired and sleep all day and night. So I got prescribed to adderall xr 20 mg. I personally like the regualr adderall, the pink ones, because I can feel the speed kick in right away. And the xr is hard for me to sleep. I am 19 years old, and I am an addict, as well as my mother. She takes soooo many pills... I smoke about a pack of cigarettes a day and I rarley eat. Today I ate 2 small dark chocolate pieces from starbucks, a few sips of a low cal frappicuino, and then for din din I ate one chicken finger, a few chips and salsa and a lot of coffee.... Oh and one slice of pizza and a cup of strawberrys. I have lost some weight I know that for a fact. And I dont excersice. I used to every day and I was so healthy. I am very happy, I am not depressed at all, but I am just worried about my health, in terms of my heart, because I can feel it beating really hard and fast right out of my boney chest cavity. I want to one day stop taking it, but I am scared of how I will act and I know I will always want and crave more and more. Like, I have to wait till april 25th for my knew prescription! I am scared about tomorrow because I dont want to feel depressed w/o it! What should I do!?? Please help me my friends! I love you all and thank you for your time! -kiki- :oops: