Hi ggshawy, I sincerely hope you're ok. I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. You must feel like you have a really tough life right now. And I agree, I don't have problems as severe as you do but I do feel like sitting in my room and crying all the time. The most important urgent issue is your overdose- is this what you want ofr yourself? You are 17 means you will be in collegse soon maybe, get a job, drive.... What do you wnat 10 years from now. Are you taking the steps to do it? Maybe you could ask yourself these questions.
I wonder why the counseling hasn'e helped- have you told your counselor this? If they are part of the problem, get a new conselor. You deserve the best because you have life ahead of you alife without any worries and a life filled with happiness and dreams and goals. Please believe that for everyone, no matter how messed up they are, there is help out there and there is a better life.
To cope, I know it feels like you can't. To cope when I feel crummy, I often write in a diary. It reallyhelps because you can pour out all thought and feelings. Take care of yourself and i'll be thinking of you ok. :d

Hey, thanks for that reply, that was sweet.
Well basicly I did write a diary but I had to burn it as though I was burning part of my life, it was all bad memorys, an d I made it into part of my obsession which is just a vicious circle because no matter what I rty to go forward from something always holds me back, my councellor is brilliant its just the excercises dont particulaly work that well.

Iv had a hard childhood my dad beat and cheated on my mum, her partner now has cheated and had children elsewhere, my little sister died my mum had depression and was suicidle so I was neglected, bullied all my life at school and now to top it off im in a relationship where im jealous and he is violent to me, so were both as bad as each other but its taking its toll on, I feel on the end of my tether and the only bit of comfort is the security of wanting a baby desperatly, me and my partner love each other and were trying hard to make it work are we mad????

I just dont know what to do now, im in a dead end.