Hi shelly how are you doing today? I'm so sorry to hear about all thr troubles you are having with your eating. You seem to have a great life filled with people who really care about you. But I know that when an eating problem like this takes over it is so hard to listen to their kind words and well wishes. You feel that they are all aganist you and i, from experince feel the same way too. You mention that you eat fattening food, so the first thing you might want to ask yourself is when do you eat this stuff? When you're alone? Sad? Bored? Depressed? Angry? When you feel like eating you might want to take one minute and ask yourself "is this worth the calories and the wieght gain? Is this worth the feelings of guilt and depression I will feel later?" maybe you could write in a journal your feelings when you feel bad about doing this to youself and read it when you feel like you can't control your eating?
Also starving is not the way to go but I used to try desperately not to eat and now I eat compulsively. So, even though you may starve for a few days, you will not be able to control your urge for fattenings foods later and will probably eat more, gaining weight. Starving leads to bingeing surely. Your body wil constantly crave it and you will give up completely. I have had constant and miservble expreiences with this. Think "one chocolate truffle now or a whole box later."
well that's all for now. Hope I helped. Ha ha if only I could take my own advice. Sorry i'm being a hypocrite. Take care ok

Hello, shelly.

I too am bulimic, I have been for 5 yrs. After having my 2nd son, I was very ill, I never realized I had a problem, silly me thought my body was just rejecting foods that were bad for me. I never had to make myself vomit, I thought about it and it just happens. When I got pregnant with my daughter, I swear she saved my life. I was good through most of my pregnancy, I did have some issues, but my best friend called and told my doctor,so I was no longer allowed to see how much I weighed. Bulima can cause you to have a preterm baby, which my daughter was 4 wks. Early but I was ready to deliver at 28 wks. When she was born and I didn't hear her crying, it scared me to death. What did I do? She was fine after a little bit and she started to cry. After I had her I swore never again. I walked on my treadmill for 45 mins. A day, did sit-ups, but mostly I counted every calorie. I did slim-fast and subscribed to cooking light.
Of course I didn't lose it all at once, but I was losing 4 lbs. A week.
If you just see yourself losing it in a good way you'll be so proud of yourself.
Have you spoken to your doctor about this?
I now have to go and get my electrolytes checked and i'm on heart medication. And it's because of bulimia. Terri schavio had bulimia and look what happened to her. Don't allow that to happened to you and mostly to your son.

I know this is long but I just get so worked up, plus no one really understands this unless they too have went or is going through this.
If you need to talk i'm here!!!