I'm actually still doing pretty well, but my baby's first birthday would have probably been 9/4/05 and my aunt-in-law just had a baby and is having her baptised on the 3rd. Part of me says "what! You should remember what happened to me and never plan anything around that time again" but I know that is totally unreasonable, but i've learned that during this time of the year I have to let myself be unreasonable and emotional or else I burry it and it comes back up at some later date, much stronger and more concentrated.
With my miscarriage I had no symptoms at all, just suddenly I didn't have night sickness, it's kinda funny b/c my mom never had morning sickness, only night sickness, and same with me. But I just felt something was wrong. And like I said the next day the u/s said no heart beat. I had the miscarriage at home.
I am not taking birth control pills for a while, I just can't bring myself to it right now. I'm also thinking I could be pregnant. But last month I had to positive hpts and then I had my period. But there were no clots :oops: and it was very short and my stomach was really irritated.
Last night when my husband was playing w/ my boob it suddenly hurt and then 10 minutes later something came out.. I don't know what, he did it again to see if it would happen again, nothing happened while he was doing it but again afterwards something came out, it was clear and kinda oily. I read on a website (i wish i'd saved the address) of hundreds of women who, though pregnant w/ a healthy pregnancy had negative preg tests up to the 6th month.
What worries me is another miscarriage, I think I could actually handle another miscarriage but it's still birth or premature labor that scares me to death. I know I can never know for sure that it's not going to happen, but I keep thinking that the longer I wait maybe the less afraid i'll be, but I don't think it's working that way.