Wasted

Hi, I hope you are doing well today. I know what your going through isn't easy because eating disorders can take over a persons life and it makes it more difficult when your parents are clueless to what they are. An eating disorder is not about how you behave around food although that is a part in it, eating disorder are about how you think and feel and a person who suffers from an eating disorder would think and feel very negativilty about themselves and how others view them. You gave a pretty good example with your parents, you are using food as a controlling mechanism, a way to make sure your parents can't protect you from everything and your right they can't. Do you mind me asking what age you are because I am from ireland and once you are 18 yuo can go to therapy without involving your parents, so maybe that could work for you. It is so important that you do get help because the behaviour around food will only change when your thoughts and feelings become more positive, therapy is really the best way to recover from an eating disorder. The longer you live with an eating disorder without getting help the longer it will take to recover but remember that everyone can recover, there is always hope. You are worth so much more then this, you deserve so much more out of life. You did not choose to have an eating disorder but you can choose to recover from it, you can choose to fight it and you can choose to be free of it. Choose life, choose to get better choose to fight. You are very strong and I know that because everyone with an eating disorder is extremely strong, sure look at what we do to ourselves, many people wouldn't be able to survive but we do. Use your strenght to help you please don't use it against you.
If you have any questions or you just need to talk please don't hestite to write to me, i'd love to hear how your gettting on.
Recovery is possible and you deserve to recover.

Jenny :d