Hi there I just wondering if you could take a minute and give me some suggestions or help.
I think im hiv positive but am not sure
i had unprotected sex about 2 and a half years ago I was 16 and the women I had sex was 23, I keep thinking if she has given me it I was really stupid just did not even think about it even though the last time I done it I swore I would not do it again,
for the last 8months I have been having symptoms of hiv.
The symptoms just started like someone turning on a tap I think maybe the tiredness may have started earlier because this is hard to tell, you can make a hundred excuses for being tired. Anyway it started with just a full week of bad diarrhea but apart from that feeling perfectly fine, soon after I started getting a dry cough which was pretty bad I was coughing all the time actually and went to see the doctor about it, and she could see no problem, about a month later the night sweats came, waking up soaking in the middle of the night. Thats when I got very worried and contact my doctor. My doctor took blood samples looking for blood count information and testing for diabetes both came back fine,
i was getting really worried about the whole thing and was starting to get pretty scared about it being hiv and did not tell my doctor as I felt I was not ready,
soon after this my symptoms changed in a big way my dry cough stopped the night sweats just stopped out of the blue. My diarrhea changed from being full diarrhea to still needing the toilet when I eat but most of the time it is solid but I still got loose stools sometimes.
I was quite relived when this happened but the loose stools or urge to go to the toilet was still there, and on my mind.
I then one day I just decided that I would go up and get tested for all sexual infections I felt I had to just to put my mind at rest, the doctor said that everything looked fine and took tests including the hiv test.
After about two weeks of thinking they are going to phone me and tell me the bad news I received a letter clearing me of all diseases, this was a massive relief, but that sadly was short lived.
My symptoms are still here but they are now feeling tired no energy,weak muscles, blisters on my tongue, tremors of arms and muscles, rashes, bloating,memory loss, and I seem to have very warm hands and they sweat at my fingertips,
i have lost faith in my doctor as he basically does not know, I know I should speak to my family but I don't want to get them worried, I cant seem to think about my future without the hiv thing popping into my thoughts, im only 19 now and its really getting me down I have tested negative but still have all the symptoms and cant seem to see anyother disease or virus that it might be,
any help plz will be much appreciated