I am in a relationship with a man which started about 6 months ago. I have always been open and honest with him from the start. I suffer from depression and was taking zoloft at the time. It was sending me crazy so I weaned myself off it. I was doing great until 6 weeks ago when I realised something was wrong with me. I was trying to explain to my b/f that something wasn’t right with me. I realise soon after telling him this that I was ‘crashing’. I tried explaining to him what was happening and I didn’t want him to be there when I hit rock bottom so maybe he should go and spend a few days at his mum's house. He told me he was here for better or worse and that we will get through it.
Well I finally hit rock bottom about a week later and he freaked out and went home to his mum’s. Not for a few days…he moved out completely. He left me when I was totally down and out. After a week of being in shock I got my act together and started seeing a great shrink and taking a new anti-depressant. Since then he has told me that I have cause a lot of pain and stress to out relationship and to him and he will need time to heal. He has also told me he can’t trust me anymore at the moment. I am finding this very hard to come to terms with as in the start of our relationship he seriously violated the trust factor between us but I forgave him and moved on with life. He is still dragging this out 5 weeks later.
He has personal attacks on me everytime we talk saying I should have handle it better and I should have been aware of what was happening. I thought I was happy with this man so I wasn’t convinced at the time that I was ‘crashing’. I have asked for his support to help me through this and one day he will give it to me and the next he’s telling I want to much from him. When I have suggested we end things he starts crying and tells me he wants us and wants to be together till we are old. He hasn’t told me that he loves me in a week maybe more now although I tell him everyday. I don’t understand what he’s doing. Does he want us but is scared of my depression or does he not want us and is worried that telling me will cause me to ‘crash’ again? He’s 29. Any advice would be great.
