I also worry a lot about health issues, most of the time to unreasonably extreme measures. If I have a headache that doesn't go away or does respond to aspirin? Must be a tumor. Headache that's a little over to one side? Tumor. Pain in the back of my neck or in my shoulder? Tumor. Pupils 'seem' to be a tiny bit uneven? Tumor. Can't breathe right? Embolism. Nausea? Tumor, or pregnancy. Period doesn't come right exactly when I expect it to? Pregnancy. Yes, pregnancy would be a very very bad thing to happen in my life.
Over the last year and a half (about), I've developed odd physical symptoms that have no explanation. Tension headaches that have never ever gone away and that often travel down the sides of my head and into my cheeks. Breathing problems that make me feel short of breath all the time. And, most recently, very very slight feelings of dizziness. It's not vertigo, but just the kind of light dizzines that makes you give your head a quick shake to clear your head.
My first thought? I have a brain tumor or some sort of brain infection. Even though I'm only 20, have never had any neurological problems and have no family history of neurological problems, I am scared I have something fatally wrong with me. My breahting problems used to be worse, to the point where I forced myself to stay awake until I couldn't stand it anymore. I could only sleep when I was so exhausted that I said to myself, "I'm scared I'm going to die, but I'm too tired to care".
There are other things that cause me stress, but potential health issues are the main cause. And I am also one of those people who researches their symptoms on the internet, and I go into panic mode if I search "headache" and one of the results is "Symptoms of Brain Tumor".
I've had many tests done to find out the causes of this stuff. I've had asthma testing done and got negative results. I had a CAT scan of my chest done when the breathing problems started so bloot clots could be ruled out and the results came back normal. I've been put on a few antibiotics because my doctor can't see me but probably wants to shut me up by telling me it's a sinus infection and prescribing me stuff, none of which has helped. My lungs sound healthy, my oxygen levels are always at least at 97 percent, I have no chest pain at all, my vision, coordination, and memomry are fine, I'm not throwing up......and yet, I'm still scared to death I have something very wrong with me.
The thing is no one I know has ever died or been ill with something very bad. But all it takes is reading one story about one person who had a brain tumor and only one symptom to scare me into thinking, "What if that's what's happening to ME?"
I worry basically about darn near everything, not just health problems. If I don't see or hear from my best friend (with whom I spend lots of time) at least once a day, I worry. If I don't hear from my boyfriend for a few days, I'm worried something happened to him. If I think one of my cats feels a little ligher, I'm worried she's sick. If I have school or work deadlines hanging over my head, I worry. I worry during finals week. I get anxious about going home for my breaks because my mother's boyfriend just LOVES to tell me what I need to do with my life and no matter how many times I say I don't want to hear it, he just kees on preaching. I can't even be intimate with my boyfriend without worrying - I'm always scared I'm going to get pregnant even though we protect ourselves and there's a Planned Parenthood near where I live that I could visit to deal with a pregnancy. I worry about my grades because all my life if I didn't get good grades, I would get bloody screamed at by my mother and even though I'm an adult now, I still have nervous breakdowns if I get anything lower than a B. I worry if I miss class, even if it's for legitimate reasons. I worry when I forget to do an assignment. I worry when I don't have enough money for food. I worry that I eat too much.
In a nutshell, I worry about everything. I think I'd make a psychiatrist's head exlpode.