Since last night i've been feeling really weird. Old memories have been coming up and giving me these old, depressing emotions that make me feel really depressed and uncomfortable. They just feel.. Really odd and... Weird. I can't control them or stop them. I had one nightmare last night and it lasted through out the night weather or not I woke to go to the bathroom or not. I dreamt my dad died and I was taking care of my mom. I've had these feelings throughout the night and now since i've woken up. It started last night before bed after I thought I heard somebody saying "yes" twice but my mom wasn't talking. Then I was worried that something happened to my mom even though it didn't. I just.. I feel really different suddenly... Everything seems unfamiliar and just weird. I'm having trouble focusing on anything else and I really feel like i'm going insane.

I can't get past these emotions. It's like my brain think's i'm asleep and it's pulling out memories and the emotions attached to them. And no matter what I look at, read or want to feel the only thing I feel is the emotion attached to the memory. Does this mean i'm schizophrenic or something? Again, I feel like i'm ging crazy.


Edit: I also have paranoia(people are trying to poison/drug me) and I don't know it it's just my eyes but things seem to move slightly when i'm not looking directly at them. And i'm sensitive to noise and light and I have a dependent personality, I rely on my parents a lot.




Any suggestions/opinions?




By the way, i'm on birth control if that matters at all. I have severe anxiety and go to therapy for it.