I'm so lost at the moment. I am the worst person on the entire planet. Today I was told my therapist was fired and its all because of me. I am just such a bad person and I will never ever be able to forgive myself. I hope one day my therapist will be able to forgive me and the worst part is that I don't know what i've done. Of course no one has told me that my therapist getting fired is my fault but I just no it is. I wanted to learn so much from her and no she's gone. I have a new therapist now and she's great but its still not the same. I will never ever forgive myself for being so bad and I don't want anyone else to ever love me, I don't see how anyone else could ever love me. I'm the worst person in the whole world and I deserve nothing but bad things and having an eating disorder is my punishment for being so bad. I'm just hopeless and i'll never be good thats just the way it is and the worst part of it all is that i'm not sure what i've done but I know its all my fault. Thats all I have to say and no one reply because I don't deserve it and I mean it!
Sweetheart, you have an eating disorder because you feel this way, not vice versa. You aren't being punished!
Why in the world do you think your therapist got fired because of you? If you "don't know what I did" then I am sure her getting fired had nothing to do with you.
You are a wonderful person and you deserve and need people to love you! You can learn things from your new therapist! Don't give up. I know it is hard, so very hard, but you can overcome it!