the Worst Person In the World Posted: 03-01-05 12:21pm
I'm so lost at the moment. I am the worst
person on the entire planet. Today I was
told my therapist was fired and its all
because of me. I am just such a bad
person and I will never ever be able to
forgive myself. I hope one day my
therapist will be able to forgive me and
the worst part is that I don't know what
i've done. Of course no one has told me
that my therapist getting fired is my
fault but I just no it is. I wanted to
learn so much from her and no she's gone.
I have a new therapist now and she's great
but its still not the same. I will never
ever forgive myself for being so bad and I
don't want anyone else to ever love me, I
don't see how anyone else could ever love
me. I'm the worst person in the whole
world and I deserve nothing but bad things
and having an eating disorder is my
punishment for being so bad. I'm just
hopeless and i'll never be good thats just
the way it is and the worst part of it all
is that i'm not sure what i've done but I
know its all my fault. Thats all I have
to say and no one reply because I don't
deserve it and I mean it!
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2ferano
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Dec 2003 Posts: 3717
Posted: 03-01-05 12:41pm
Sweetheart, you have an eating disorder
because you feel this way, not vice versa.
You aren't being punished!
Why in the world do you think your
therapist got fired because of you? If
you "don't know what I did" then I am sure
her getting fired had nothing to do with
you.
You are a wonderful person and you deserve
and need people to love you! You can
learn things from your new therapist!
Don't give up. I know it is hard, so
very hard, but you can overcome it!
