I just wanted to let you know that people care. I don't know what kind of advice I can give you......Just know that someone here is thinking about you, and don't apologize for saying how you feel. Getting your feelings out will help, better than holding them all in. Hope things start looking up..... :-)

I kinda know how you are feeling, and what you are doing right now can actually help you get better,. If you cant talk out all your feelings than take a journal or a book and express how you feeel and if you dont know what to write ,then leave it for another day,try yoga..That helps too..

Are there any hobbies that you have done in the past that you love doing that make you happy? If so maybe get back into something you like doing. Mine is of course being a female shopping!

I have been given an "exercise" my theropist is to write in my journal
"how I felt today" and when i'm up for it "a postive thing about myself"
and it's helping because it's getting things out of my mind for me to see in the open.

Start mediation maybe? Surround yourself with your good friends. Things do eventually go on the up again, we can never always go down, even when you think we can.

And coming here has helped me alot to.

i compleatly understand babe about 6mounths ago I was the same but I was self harmin and wantin 2 kill myself I went to councerling n coz it drew so much attention 2 me I made out I was ok n over everything but im still not im just depressed n away I dont show it but wot I do is think that ur brain is a glass of water everythinme sumthing bovers u a bit more water is added n un til u tell sum1 or find away 2 compleatly empty ur glass it keeps fillin until it over flows u cant let it over flow u hav 2 find a way of pourin it out each time u get a bit of watter added always find away to hav an empty glass!