I have not seen nor spoken with my now ex- boyfriend

he has not stalked me, sent me a bill for using his electricity when I was at his house with him, or gas money or when he drove to me stores, or to school bill, he has not called, or presented me with any papers that I have to go court,
( these were things that he said he would do, if I left him)

well he never said the word stalked, he did say, that he would follow me anywhere and make my life a living _ _ _ _

yet that was the negative side, the dark side of him

prior, when were dating and all, of course it was beautiful
and most romantic and loving, and passionate, and so hot
and everything I dreamed of ....

Well I woke up to reallize that he has a dark moody side
that his moods have changed, as he became more unpredicatable

i don't know, I feel like he started drug use, I have no evidence of it,
but he was so moody in just amount of hours,
loving one moment, then he wakes up from a nap, and all heck breaks loose and I am thinking, I have placed myself in a very unsafe situation

even though hours prior, it was passionate, very intimate and loving...

Ugh.

My valentines day was so lonely. I just curled up in my bed after my real life obligations were met, so sad, so lonely

i want to meet someone with that has the positive aspects of my ex boyfriend

i don't want to be alone. I am independent, I do have self esteem
i am overweight now, but my goal is to be thin by august. ( want to lose at least 60 pounds)

i am just sad, I think I will be ok, in terms of no more drama from my x.

Never been in this type of relationship prior, never to intend to be in one like it ever again.

Thank you all for reading, and responding, I know this was long
i guess I am so lonely and sad :cry: