I just broke up with my boyfriend

i still love him, I miss him at this moment,
yet I had to.

He is diganosed with bipolar disorder.

He was so loving and sweet, yet he had a dark side

his moods started to become unpredictable and at times, I felt fearful as I felt my saftey was in jeporady.

So I left him for that, the negative unhealthy aspects
he started to throw my purse, or belongings, try to kick me out of the car, he pulled off in some random neighbor, and said, leave your purse and get out,
but I did not want to leave my purse, and it would be a really long walk home, no sidewalks, so I just said nice things so I could stay in the car...
( he was so odd at times)

he did this, when I started noticing signs, and told him I don't see a future with us

in hindsight, I should have kept my mouth shut, but I am a honest person.
Yet, at least, I could see what he is capable of ....

Anyways, so I did not want to stick around and see what he is fully capapble of....

Valentines, yesterday, was most depressing, I sat in bed and ate and cried, so depressing, I know

anyways, I am hurt

i wish I could meet someone who exhibiits the positive aspect of him
i will love him forever in one respect, and hope for the best for him
and at the same time, part of me misses him

i guess I am just lonely

thanks for listening,