(sorry about my bad english but I just HAD TO share my story)
my story:
Since i'm working nightshift i started with zopiclona too sleep by daytime. It seemed harmless in the beginning and i used only 3,75 mg.
What I then didnt know was that this stuff, because of it's short biological half-life (4 hours) , can give a slightly form of abstinence only short time after you have taken it.
Many, including me, experience awaikening after 4 hours. then the temptation is big to take more. Thats how it started to go downhill for me.
After about 8 hours (at the second half-life) I experienced a kind of anxiety, total passivity, social anxiety and agressivity. I thought it was something wrong with me. Now I understand that this was only the zopiclone which left my body, and my brains GABA-system that was affected.
The only thing that helped against this anxiety was to take more zopiclone. I remember the first time i took 2 x 7,5mg. I couldnt sleep so I desided to go out. I dont remember any more.
I woke up in the evening and i had been shopping. My refridgerator was full of food which i had bought but didnt remeber. This is a known bi-effect of zopiclone and other benzodiacepines known as amnesia. Later I also found out that I had called friends and made appointments which I didnt remeber.
I can remeber thou that I had hallucinations. The pattern in my carpet was moving when I looked at it but the carpet itself was not moving. This sideeffect did not dissapear even days after I took the pills.
But the anxiety disapeared as long as I took more zopiclone every 4'th hour. My brain started telling me that there was something wrong with me and that I just needed this stuff to survive. But the antianxiety-effect didnt last for long.
To make a long history short. After using zopiclone for 7 years I was now using about 20-30 x 7,5mg per day. I started my day with 7-10 pills just to get out of bed. To avoid drowsiness I used 3-4 fenazon-coffein-pills. At some point I was near to try amphetamin, but thank God I didn't. With so many sleepingpills inside, you are not exactly sane, and your critical sense is very reduced.
I couldn't get out of this addiction alone so I contacted my doctor ( who was only one of MANY, since I had been doctor shopping a lot) I also bought pills from china on the internet.
He contacted a treatment place, and after waiting for 3 months I got in to treatment.
Now I dont use anything, and I now understand that many of the things I was suffering from was because of the pills themselves. The treatment was 1 week in 24h institution and 2 months as day-patient.
Now that is half a year ago and I only go there about once pr month for a talk. Some of the side-effects (ex. dry mouth and muscle tremor ) are still there. The doctors say that you will have to use about 1 month pr year you have been mis-using.
I didnt start to feel OK untill I had been TOTALLY without pills for approximately 1 month.
One more important thing about half-life : When you take a pill you must think about 7x the half-life-time untill you can say that the pills are out. For another common benzodiazepin, diacepam, the half-time is about 35 hours. Then you must think 7x35 =245 hours (10 days !!)
Wake up and dont let the farmacological industry fool you, as they have fooled your doctor with luxus hotels and seminars. There are NO farmacological sleepingpills without side-effects and dependence.